{"id":10145,"date":"2013-05-22T09:10:17","date_gmt":"2013-05-22T04:10:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.zerdab.com\/?p=10145"},"modified":"2013-05-22T00:18:48","modified_gmt":"2013-05-21T19:18:48","slug":"k%c9%99ndd%c9%99n-cixanda-iki-boyuk-ayriliq-yasadim-kitab-v%c9%99-agac-ayriligi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.zerdab.com\/?p=10145","title":{"rendered":"K\u0259ndd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda iki b\u00f6y\u00fck ayr\u0131l\u0131q ya\u015fad\u0131m: kitab v\u0259 a\u011fac ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"
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M\u00fc\u0259llif: Lo\u011fman<\/strong><\/span><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

K\u0259ndd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda iki b\u00f6y\u00fck ayr\u0131l\u0131q ya\u015fad\u0131m: kitab v\u0259 a\u011fac ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131. Yara isti-isti \u00e7ox a\u011fr\u0131tm\u0131r ax\u0131. Onun h\u0259r ikisi m\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fma adamlar kimi \u0259ziz idi. M\u0259n adamlardan \u00e7ox a\u011faclar v\u0259 kitablarla dostluq ed\u0259 bilirdim. \u00c7\u00fcnki onlar\u0131n h\u0259r ikisi t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z dostluq idi. T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259likd\u0259n q\u0259pik-q\u0259pik toplay\u0131b ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m, sev\u0259-sev\u0259 m\u00fctali\u0259 etdiyim kitablar\u0131n h\u0259r biri k\u00f6hn\u0259, s\u0131nanm\u0131\u015f dostlar kimi d\u0259y\u0259rli idi. H\u0259r obraz d\u00fcnyan\u0131n m\u00fcxt\u0259lif yerl\u0259rind\u0259, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif xalqlar\u0131n n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259si kimi tan\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fum, oxuduqca b\u0259nz\u0259m\u0259k, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131, \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rini t\u0259krarlamaq ist\u0259diyim konkret insanlard\u0131. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q saralm\u0131\u015f, cans\u0131z v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rd\u0259n deyil, canl\u0131, sevimli, ill\u0259rl\u0259 d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fdiyim insanlardan – dostlardan idi. Onlar m\u0259n\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259ri ba\u015fa sald\u0131lar ki… H\u0259yat\u0131n adi g\u00f6zl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n o q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131b g\u00f6st\u0259rdil\u0259r ki, o q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259rd\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t a\u00e7d\u0131lar ki, h\u0259yat\u0131, d\u00fcnyan\u0131, insanlar\u0131 d\u0259rk etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn o q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259limd\u0259n tutdular ki…<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

\u0130nsan\u0131n, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, d\u00fcnyan\u0131 anlamaq, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259\u015ff etm\u0259k bax\u0131m\u0131ndan kitab q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6n\u0259mli ikinci bir m\u0259nb\u0259yi yoxdur.<\/p>\n

Kitabdan s\u0259daq\u0259tli dost tapmaq \u00e7\u0259tindir. Amma m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn o g\u00fcnl\u0259r b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259v\u0259zolunmaz c\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259ri il\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n \u0259sirliyind\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015f kitab yadda\u015f\u0131 idi. El\u0259 bilirdim ki, onlardan \u00f6yr\u0259ndikl\u0259rimi bir d\u0259 yada sala bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. M\u0259nd\u0259n incik qald\u0131qlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 vaxt yad\u0131ma g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. Art\u0131q m\u0259nim yadda\u015f\u0131m m\u0259nd\u0259n yox, onlardan as\u0131l\u0131 idi. \u00d6z can\u0131m\u0131 qurtar\u0131b, onlar\u0131 at\u0131b g\u0259lmi\u015fdim ax\u0131.<\/p>\n

Kitablar iflic u\u015faqlar kimiydil\u0259r; \u00f6zl\u0259ri h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t ed\u0259 bilmirdil\u0259r, m\u0259ns\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259kd\u0259 aciz idim…<\/p>\n

H\u0259r g\u00fcn i\u015fd\u0259n d\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259 ev\u0259 girm\u0259mi\u015f, s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f ba\u011fa, a\u011faclara ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kirdim. Ax\u0131 bu a\u011faclar bir g\u00fcnd\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259 bil\u0259rdi? M\u0259n onu hiss etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim v\u0259 bunu ayd\u0131n \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. O a\u011faclar\u0131n bir g\u00fcnd\u0259 nec\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdikl\u0259rinin \u015fahidi olurdum. V\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 ba\u011fa gir\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, a\u011faclar g\u0259li\u015fimi g\u00f6zl\u0259yirl\u0259r, ba\u011f\u0131 t\u0259rk ed\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 arxamca boylan\u0131rlar. Onlar m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox do\u011fma idil\u0259r. O a\u011faclarla\u00a0 a\u011fac dilind\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q. H\u0259r a\u011fac\u0131n da \u00f6z tarixi, bel\u0259 dem\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u0259, \u201ct\u0259rc\u00fcmeyi-hal\u0131\u201d vard\u0131. \u018fn ya\u015fl\u0131s\u0131 tut a\u011fac\u0131 idi. L\u0259l\u0259min ya\u015f\u0131d\u0131 idi. Qaraba\u011fda \u00e7ox vaxt ataya \u201cl\u0259l\u0259\u201d, anaya \u201cbaj\u0131\u201d, b\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015fa \u201cqa\u011fa\u201d, atan\u0131n bac\u0131s\u0131na is\u0259 \u201cmama\u201d deyirl\u0259r. Bu frans\u0131z \u201cmama\u201ds\u0131ndan deyildi. He\u00e7 k\u0259s ona bibi dem\u0259zdi. Bibi camaat\u0131n fikrinc\u0259, kitab s\u00f6z\u00fc idi. Kitab dilind\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fana da birt\u0259h\u0259r baxar, hoydu-hoyduya g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259rdil\u0259r. H\u0259, l\u0259l\u0259m dey\u0259rdi ki, bu tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131 o anadan olan g\u00fcn\u00fc \u018fbd\u00fclh\u0259s\u0259n d\u0259d\u0259m (ona da \u201cbaba\u201d dem\u0259zdik) \u0259kib – l\u0259l\u0259min ad\u0131na. O da 90 il b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb-b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb, da\u011f boyda olmu\u015fdu. Ba\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fck bir hiss\u0259sini qanadlar\u0131 alt\u0131na alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu a\u011fac ail\u0259mizin, qonum-qon\u015funun tut ehtiyac\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6d\u0259yirdi – yem\u0259y\u0259, do\u015fab v\u0259 ri\u00e7al bi\u015firm\u0259y\u0259, tutqurusu s\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yay\u0131n isti g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 dan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6zun\u0259m\u0259xsus bir s\u0259rinliyi vard\u0131. H\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n tut a\u011fac\u0131na \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b doyunca yey\u0259r, sonra evd\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131b g\u0259tir\u0259rdim ki, yuxudan duranda acqar\u0131na yesinl\u0259r. G\u00fcn qalxandan sonra bunun el\u0259 d\u0259 l\u0259zz\u0259ti olmur, adam\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yini soyutmurdu. Bel\u0259 daha xeyirli olur. Ad\u0259t\u0259n, tutu \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131b y\u0131\u011fard\u0131lar, amma m\u0259n onu bir-bir d\u0259rirdim. V\u0259 h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259 tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u0259lib, budaqlar\u0131na d\u0131rmanmam\u0131\u015fdan \u0259vv\u0259l \u0259limi onun k\u0259l\u0259-k\u00f6t\u00fcr, cadar-cadar olmu\u015f g\u00f6vd\u0259sin\u0259 qoyub, q\u0259rib\u0259 hissl\u0259r ke\u00e7irirdim. \u0130ndi onu tam ifad\u0259 etm\u0259kd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m, amma onu bilir\u0259m ki, tut a\u011fac\u0131 il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q – a\u011fac dilind\u0259, adam dilind\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u018fncir a\u011fac\u0131 da tut a\u011fac\u0131na \u00e7atmasa da, n\u0259h\u0259ng idi. Ba\u011f\u0131m\u0131za ged\u0259n arx\u0131n \u0259traf\u0131n\u0131 tamam tutmu\u015f, \u0259mimgilin h\u0259y\u0259tin\u0259 d\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. S\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259rilmi\u015f \u0259ncirl\u0259r yay\u0131n istisi il\u0259 m\u00fcqayis\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7ox s\u0259rin, h\u0259tta dey\u0259rdim soyuq olurdu. \u018fncirl\u0259r d\u0259yib saral\u0131r, i\u00e7ind\u0259n bir gil\u0259 \u015fir\u0259si \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 yumrulan\u0131rd\u0131. Budaqlar\u0131n lap ucundak\u0131 \u0259ncirl\u0259r \u00e7ox yeti\u015fir, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7ox dadl\u0131 olurdu. Bel\u0259 \u0259ncirl\u0259ri d\u0259rm\u0259k xeyli z\u0259hm\u0259t t\u0259l\u0259b edirdi. \u00c7ox vaxt a\u011fac\u0131n \u0259zilmi\u015f yarpaqlar\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xan a\u011fappaq s\u00fcd adam\u0131n \u0259l-qolunu yand\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Amma sonra s\u0259h\u0259r s\u00fcfr\u0259sind\u0259 o a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bala d\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc. S\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 qoyulmu\u015f tut, \u0259ncir yay g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, \u0259n dadl\u0131 s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259kl\u0259ri idi. Bel\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259l\u0259rin \u00f6zg\u0259 bir g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi vard\u0131, adam\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdi, ba\u015f\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

O biri a\u011faclar\u0131n da h\u0259r\u0259sinin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 xas olan bir c\u00fcr g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi vard\u0131. Sev\u0259-sev\u0259 yediyimiz meyv\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn ail\u0259mizin tut, \u0259ncir, alma, armud\u00a0 \u015firinliyind\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259ri a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. O \u015firinlik b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fcn ruhuna hopurdu, dad\u0131na \u00e7evrilirdi. G\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n, g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz i\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 tut, \u0259ncir tam\u0131 g\u0259lirdi… Amma bu \u015firinliyin f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmazd\u0131q. El\u0259 bil\u0259rdik ki, el\u0259 bel\u0259 d\u0259 olmal\u0131d\u0131r. \u0130ll\u0259r ke\u00e7di, saymad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z c\u0131r al\u00e7a, itburnu, mor tut, b\u00f6y\u00fcrtk\u0259n, yemi\u015fan da el\u0259 l\u0259zizl\u0259\u015fdi, el\u0259 mataha d\u00f6nd\u00fc ki… \u0130ll\u0259r ke\u00e7di v\u0259 \u00e7ox sonralar a\u00e7\u0131lan s\u0259h\u0259rimiz\u0259, g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 v\u0259 \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131za \u015firinlik qatan qayna\u011f\u0131n tamam ba\u015fqa yerd\u0259 oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131q. Bu, \u0259cdadlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ruhu g\u0259z\u0259n, k\u00f6rp\u0259liyimiz, g\u0259ncliyimiz ke\u00e7\u0259n, h\u0259r da\u015f\u0131, h\u0259r a\u011fac\u0131, tozu-torpa\u011f\u0131 bel\u0259 biz\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olan do\u011fma yurd yeri idi. H\u0259r \u015feyi \u0259zizl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n, g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n, m\u0259naland\u0131ran, d\u0259y\u0259rli v\u0259 \u0259v\u0259zsiz ed\u0259n, h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n b\u0259z\u0259yin\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259n ata oca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z idi. D\u00fcnyada el\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259r var ki, onun \u0259sl qiym\u0259tini yaln\u0131z itir\u0259nd\u0259 bilm\u0259k olur… Onu itir\u0259nd\u0259n sonra yerind\u0259 yaranan bo\u015flu\u011fun b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc anlayanda itkinin miqyas\u0131 b\u0259lli olur. O bo\u015fluq vakuum kimi adam\u0131n i\u00e7ini, ruhunu sorub bo\u015fald\u0131r, g\u00f6yn\u0259dirdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r \u0259traf\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, budaqlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda s\u00fcfr\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdiyimiz \u00e7inar a\u011fac\u0131 da o q\u0259d\u0259r v\u00fcqarl\u0131, m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m idi ki, baxd\u0131qca el\u0259 bilirdim ki, \u00e7ox arxal\u0131y\u0131q, bizim he\u00e7 vaxt \u00e7\u0259tinliyimiz olmaz.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259rib\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, h\u0259r a\u011fac el\u0259 bil ki, bir canl\u0131 obraz idi. Nar \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri bizim arzular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u00e7\u0259k dili il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131 idi. \u0130nan\u0131rd\u0131m ki, nar \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u0259n, sev\u0259n adam he\u00e7 vaxt pis i\u015f g\u00f6rm\u0259z.<\/p>\n

O \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r torpa\u011f\u0131n a\u011facda a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259ri idi.<\/p>\n

O \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r torpa\u011f\u0131n, bar\u0131n-b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tin insana s\u00f6z\u00fc, arzusuydu. Torpaqnan dan\u0131\u015fmaq dili idi. Onu nec\u0259 sevm\u0259m\u0259k olard\u0131?..<\/p>\n

O \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r g\u00f6y\u00e7ayl\u0131 q\u0131zlar\u0131n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc yada sal\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 bilirdim yaln\u0131z g\u00f6y\u00e7ayl\u0131 q\u0131zlar nar \u00e7\u0131\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri kimi g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirl\u0259r, bir d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, nar \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri el\u0259 \u018fli K\u0259rimin o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131n toyuna qay\u0131tmaq arzusudur, realla\u015f\u0131b, h\u0259yata ke\u00e7ib…<\/p>\n

Gilaslar utancaq bac\u0131lara ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dczl\u0259rind\u0259 h\u0259ya, utancaq v\u0259 z\u0259rif q\u0131zart\u0131 vard\u0131. Gilaslar gizlic\u0259 kim\u0259s\u0259 vurulmu\u015f q\u0131zlara b\u0259nz\u0259yirdil\u0259r, \u00e7\u0259kinirdil\u0259r ki, onlar\u0131n bu gizli sevdalar\u0131ndan kims\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r tuta bil\u0259r. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 yanaqlar\u0131 bel\u0259 allan\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

L\u0259nk\u0259ran \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259n al\u0131b g\u0259tirdiyim, sev\u0259-sev\u0259 b\u0259sl\u0259diyim limon a\u011fac\u0131 is\u0259 evin k\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 kimi idi. Diqq\u0259t\u0259, qay\u011f\u0131ya daha \u00e7ox ehtiyac duyurdu. G\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 il sonra ilk d\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259mi\u015fdi. Limon \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rinin \u00f6z g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi, b\u0259nz\u0259rsizliyi, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus \u0259tri var. \u0130lk \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n yaln\u0131z biri bar tutmu\u015fdu. U\u015faq h\u0259v\u0259si il\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn o t\u0259r\u0259f-bu t\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 ke\u00e7ir, ox\u015fay\u0131b-\u0259zizl\u0259yir, saral\u0131b d\u0259ym\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdik. Limon a\u011fac\u0131 il\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z da unudulmaz bir s\u0259hn\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259, onun dib\u00e7\u0259yini h\u0259y\u0259timizd\u0259ki \u00e7inar a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na g\u0259tirdim ki, k\u00f6lg\u0259d\u0259 qals\u0131n. 50 litrlik al\u00fcminium \u00e7\u0259ll\u0259kd\u0259 mismar boyda a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131m de\u015fiy\u0259 pamb\u0131q b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f kibrit \u00e7\u00f6p\u00fc taxd\u0131m. Sonra al\u00fcminium \u00e7\u0259ll\u0259yi su il\u0259 doldurub, limon a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki \u00e7inar buda\u011f\u0131ndan asd\u0131m. Bel\u0259 olanda su m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n fasil\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 damc\u0131-damc\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. Limon a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc bu yolla uzatmaq ist\u0259yirdim. \u0130st\u0259yirdim m\u0259nsiz d\u0259 m\u0259nim qay\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hiss el\u0259sin. He\u00e7 olmasa, inan\u0131rd\u0131m ki, bununla limon a\u011fac\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 xeyli m\u00fcdd\u0259t qurumayacaq, sa\u011f qalacaq. \u018fsl ayr\u0131l\u0131q limon quruyanda ba\u015f ver\u0259c\u0259k. Amma h\u0259m d\u0259 d\u0259lic\u0259sin\u0259 inan\u0131rd\u0131m ki, o 50 litrlik \u00e7\u0259ll\u0259kd\u0259n damc\u0131layan su do\u011fma yurd-yuvam\u0131z\u0131 azad ed\u0259n\u0259 kimi \u00e7atacaq. Lap y\u00fcz il d\u0259 ke\u00e7s\u0259 \u00e7atacaq. O, t\u0259kc\u0259 damc\u0131layan su deyil, h\u0259m d\u0259 damc\u0131-damc\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131lan \u00fcmiddir, inamd\u0131r, qeyr\u0259t hissidir, V\u0259t\u0259n sevgisidir. O t\u00fck\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259z. \u00dcstund\u0259 saralmaqda olan t\u0259k limonu is\u0259 d\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yim g\u0259lm\u0259di. Bunu bir v\u0259fas\u0131zl\u0131q hesab edirdim. El\u0259 bil do\u011fma adam\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nd\u0259n xilas ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 ayaqqab\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, qolundak\u0131 saat\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k kimi bir \u015feydi. Bu da x\u0259yan\u0259tdi. A\u011facdan ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131na, onu apara bilm\u0259diyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, he\u00e7 olmasa, meyv\u0259sini d\u0259rm\u0259k m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lirdi, etibars\u0131zl\u0131q kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bildim, a\u011fac da olsa, hiss ed\u0259c\u0259k ki, onu at\u0131b gedir\u0259m, ayr\u0131l\u0131r\u0131q. Ba\u015fqa s\u00f6zl\u0259, onun qurumas\u0131, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc il\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 a\u011fac kimi duyacaq. Onu L\u0259nk\u0259ran\u0131n tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f ba\u011fbanlar\u0131ndan biri vermi\u015fdi, demi\u015fdi ki, bu a\u011faclar insan m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259, qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131na insan q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259ssasd\u0131lar, \u00e7ox \u015f\u00fcurlu \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 reaksiya verirl\u0259r. Ba\u011fban deyirdi ki, \u00f6z t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259md\u0259 limon a\u011faclar\u0131n\u0131n insana t\u0259r\u0259f d\u00f6nd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc, insan kimi baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 etmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 a\u011fac \u0259sirliyin\u0259, k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259n k\u0259silib m\u0259hv edilm\u0259yin\u0259, susuzluqdan quruma\u011f\u0131na insan \u0259sirliyi kimi bax\u0131ram. A\u011fac \u0259sirliyinin insan \u0259sirliyind\u0259n daha d\u0259rdli oldu\u011funa inan\u0131ram. A\u011faclar m\u0259n\u0259 daha \u00e7ox u\u015faq \u0259sirliyini xat\u0131rlad\u0131r. Dilsiz-a\u011f\u0131zs\u0131z, atas\u0131z-anas\u0131z, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 gil\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f son g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yind\u0259n bel\u0259 qorxan u\u015faqlar kimi. El\u0259 bil ki, h\u0259yat haradasa donub – divar saatlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131qq\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 k\u0259sil\u0259n kimi, \u0259sirlikd\u0259ki o k\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki son damla ya\u015f kimi… O k\u00f6rp\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck d\u0259rdini g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131b. Birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 kirpikl\u0259rini \u00e7alsa, o d\u0259rdl\u0259r – damlalar t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 bu u\u015faq faci\u0259ni b\u00fct\u00fcn ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259k. H\u0259l\u0259lik is\u0259 h\u0259yat dayan\u0131b – o saat\u0131n z\u0259ncirini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n, o k\u00f6rp\u0259ni ba\u011fr\u0131na bas\u0131b sevincd\u0259n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sel kimi ax\u0131td\u0131racaq bizl\u0259rin bir t\u0259rp\u0259ni\u015fin\u0259 b\u0259nd kimi…<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bilir\u0259m ki, o g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 bizd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131 yand\u0131racaq.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259r\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim o t\u0259k limon t\u0259kc\u0259 \u0259sir al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f h\u0259yata ke\u00e7ir\u0259 bilm\u0259diyimiz arzular, ist\u0259kl\u0259r, minl\u0259rl\u0259 qiym\u0259tli d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259r, t\u0259kc\u0259 torpaq, yurd-yuva, ev-e\u015fik deyil, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259sir al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f nakam sevgil\u0259r kimi h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 i\u00e7imd\u0259 saralmaqdad\u0131r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 o \u00e7\u0259ll\u0259k damc\u0131lay\u0131r, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 o t\u0259k limon budaqdan as\u0131l\u0131 qal\u0131b…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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