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Bu pay\u0131z ya\u011f\u0131\u015fla g\u0259ldi. Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr ki, ax\u015fam ya\u011f\u0131r, s\u0259h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r.<\/p>\nBu pay\u0131z ya\u011f\u0131\u015fla g\u0259ldi. Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr ki, ax\u015fam ya\u011f\u0131r, s\u0259h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r.<\/p>\n
M\u0259n pay\u0131z ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131na tama\u015fa el\u0259m\u0259yi sevir\u0259m.\u00a0 Sevir\u0259m dey\u0259nd\u0259 ki, o ya\u011f\u0131\u015fa baxa-baxa q\u0259rib\u0259 hissl\u0259r ya\u015fay\u0131ram. He\u00e7 yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xmaz, 40-45 il \u0259vv\u0259l k\u0259ndimizd\u0259, \u00e7iy k\u0259rpicd\u0259n tikilmi\u015f evimizin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc s\u00f6yk\u0259yib, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi gec\u0259nin qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131na zill\u0259y\u0259r, tappatapla a\u011faclar\u0131, evimizin \u00e7arda\u011f\u0131n\u0131, torpa\u011f\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 qulaq asard\u0131m. Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t el\u0259c\u0259 fikr\u0259 dalar, sanki o qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 a\u011faclar\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumub yuxuya getdiyini, sar\u0131-sar\u0131 yarpaqlar\u0131n \u00fcmidsiz halda budaqdan qopub torpa\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259rdim. Yaz ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 pay\u0131z ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u0259rqi o idi ki, yaz ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131nda yerd\u0259n torpaq quxusu qalxar v\u0259 m\u0259n o qoxunu acg\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u0259 sin\u0259m\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdim, pay\u0131z ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131nda is\u0259 f\u0259rqli bir r\u00fctub\u0259t, bir d\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259klik duyard\u0131m, yaz ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 cavana, pay\u0131z ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qocaya b\u0259nz\u0259d\u0259rdim. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rdi ki, yer\u0259 s\u0259pil\u0259n yarpaqlar a\u011faclar\u0131n buda\u011f\u0131ndan deyil, g\u00f6yl\u0259rin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131r. S\u0259h\u0259r olan kimi h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131b a\u011faclar\u0131n alt\u0131na d\u00f6\u015f\u0259nmi\u015f sar\u0131 yarpaqlara tama\u015fa ed\u0259rdim. Ya\u011fan ya\u011f\u0131\u015fa, \u0259s\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259 baxmayaraq, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 budaqda qalan ara-s\u0131ra yarpaqlara baxard\u0131m, n\u0259 f\u0259rqi, ha bu g\u00fcn, ha sabah, ham\u0131s\u0131 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k. Yazda a\u00e7an b\u00fct\u00fcn yarpaqlar\u0131n bir ortaq t\u0259r\u0259fi var ki, ham\u0131s\u0131 pay\u0131zda x\u0259z\u0259l olur, b\u0259zisi sentyabrda, b\u0259zisi dekabrda, amma he\u00e7 biri g\u0259l\u0259n yaza qalan deyil.<\/p>\n
Yaz olsun, pay\u0131z olsun, n\u0259 zaman ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fsa, babam: \u201cMa\u015fallah, nur ya\u011f\u0131r, b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t ya\u011f\u0131r\u201d, – dey\u0259rdi. Babam\u0131n niy\u0259 bel\u0259 dediyini bilirdim, k\u0259ndimiz d\u0259d\u0259-babadan heyvandarl\u0131qla, x\u00fcsusil\u0259 d\u0259 qoyun\u00e7uluqla dolan\u0131\u015f\u0131q tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259rd\u0259 bit\u0259n ot, heyvan\u0131n qarn\u0131n\u0131n doymas\u0131 dem\u0259k idi. Heyvan\u0131n doymas\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k t\u0259r\u0259k\u0259m\u0259 olasan.<\/p>\n
O ill\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7ox ke\u00e7ib, lap \u00e7ox. O q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox ki, \u00f6t\u0259n m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 babam\u0131 da, atam\u0131 da k\u0259ndimizin Saz adlanan q\u0259biristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na verib, \u00f6l\u00fcml\u0259 aramdak\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn sip\u0259rl\u0259rimi itirmi\u015f, m\u00fcdafi\u0259siz qalm\u0131\u015fam sanki. Bu t\u0259\u015fbehin yerind\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 bilir\u0259m, y\u0259ni atal\u0131-babal\u0131 u\u015faqlar\u0131n da \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc az g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fik, amma bu da bir ger\u00e7\u0259kdir ki, qar\u015f\u0131da ata, baba olanda adam el\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr ki, \u00f6l\u00fcm onlar\u0131n \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259n a\u015fandan sonra s\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n
Atam\u0131n ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259m, babam\u0131n ya\u015f\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131ram, y\u0259ni m\u0259n g\u00f6z a\u00e7\u0131b do\u011fmalar\u0131m\u0131 tan\u0131yanda babam m\u0259nim indiki ya\u015f\u0131mdan bir q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fck idi.<\/p>\n
Yen\u0259 o ill\u0259rd\u0259ki kimi \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259yib ya\u011f\u0131\u015fa bax\u0131ram. \u0130ndi o do\u011fma k\u0259nd xatir\u0259l\u0259rimd\u0259 v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yuman kimi yuxular\u0131mdad\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Bak\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259nar bir m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259sind\u0259 doqquzm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li evin d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259, balkonun i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcb ya\u011f\u0131\u015fa bax\u0131ram.<\/p>\n
\u015eairin s\u00f6z\u00fc yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr: \u201cDo\u011fmalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 da, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 da, lap d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259, lap ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f yuyur, g\u00fcn qurudur\u201d. H\u0259rd\u0259n o \u015fair\u0259 d\u0259 ac\u0131\u011f\u0131m tutur, \u201cruhundan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz adam\u201d, \u201citirilmi\u015f m\u00f6vlana\u201d deyir\u0259m. Bu \u015feir h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 \u201c\u00dcz\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f do\u011fan b\u00fct\u00fcn canl\u0131lar \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc dadacaq\u201d h\u0259qiq\u0259tini p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f sell\u0259m\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131r, bel\u0259 gets\u0259, sabah t\u0259bii f\u0259lak\u0259t ad\u0131 il\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259r yay\u0131lacaq. Amma bu x\u0259b\u0259ri yazanlar he\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r ki, ya\u011fmaq ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n, \u0259sm\u0259k k\u00fcl\u0259yin, t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259k yerin haqq\u0131d\u0131r. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r ki, f\u0259lak\u0259t bu deyil, bizim t\u0259dbirsizliyimizdir, m\u0259suliyy\u0259tsizliyimizdir, a\u011f\u0131ls\u0131z i\u015fl\u0259r g\u00f6rm\u0259yimizdir. S\u0259n yolunu, evini, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rini el\u0259 tik ki, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fanda evl\u0259r\u0259 dolmas\u0131n, yollara y\u0131\u011f\u0131lmas\u0131n, z\u0259lz\u0259l\u0259 olanda u\u00e7mas\u0131n, k\u00fcl\u0259yin a\u011fz\u0131nda sovrulmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n
H\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 bax\u0131ram, g\u00f6l durub. Bir az \u0259vv\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n kanalizasiya qapa\u011f\u0131 suyun alt\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z olub. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, bu qapaqlar\u0131 niy\u0259 a\u015fs\u00fcz\u0259n kimi d\u00fcz\u0259ltmirl\u0259r ki, suyu tez ax\u0131ts\u0131n. N\u0259 is\u0259… \u0130ndi problem haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k bel\u0259 ist\u0259mir\u0259m. Onsuz da sabah Yeni Yasamal\u0131n s\u0259kisiz k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259si il\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131nlardan qorxa-qorxa \u00fcz\u00fcyuxar\u0131 d\u0131rmananda \u00e7ox \u015feyl\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259m. \u0130ndi is\u0259 yuyulmu\u015f ot, islanm\u0131\u015f torpaq kimi h\u0259lim\u0259m, yum\u015fa\u011fam v\u0259 he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n babamdan e\u015fitdiyim s\u00f6zl\u0259ri p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131ram: \u201cMa\u015fallah, nur ya\u011f\u0131r, b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t ya\u011f\u0131r\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u018fli \u00c7\u0259rk\u0259zo\u011flu, ZAMAN<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Bu pay\u0131z ya\u011f\u0131\u015fla g\u0259ldi. Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr ki, ax\u015fam ya\u011f\u0131r, s\u0259h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. M\u0259n pay\u0131z ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131na tama\u015fa el\u0259m\u0259yi sevir\u0259m.\u00a0 Sevir\u0259m dey\u0259nd\u0259 ki, o ya\u011f\u0131\u015fa baxa-baxa q\u0259rib\u0259 hissl\u0259r ya\u015fay\u0131ram. He\u00e7 yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xmaz, 40-45 il \u0259vv\u0259l k\u0259ndimizd\u0259, \u00e7iy k\u0259rpicd\u0259n tikilmi\u015f evimizin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc s\u00f6yk\u0259yib, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi gec\u0259nin qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131na zill\u0259y\u0259r, tappatapla a\u011faclar\u0131, evimizin \u00e7arda\u011f\u0131n\u0131, torpa\u011f\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 qulaq asard\u0131m. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[17],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-12167","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-kos"},"yoast_head":"\n