{"id":18940,"date":"2015-04-08T13:05:36","date_gmt":"2015-04-08T08:05:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.zerdab.com\/?p=18940"},"modified":"2015-04-08T13:05:36","modified_gmt":"2015-04-08T08:05:36","slug":"son-d%c9%99f%c9%99-k%c9%99nd%c9%99-alis-%c9%99mimin-huzrun%c9%99-getmisdim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.zerdab.com\/?p=18940","title":{"rendered":"Son d\u0259f\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 Al\u0131\u015f \u0259mimin h\u00fczr\u00fcn\u0259 getmi\u015fdim"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"k\u0259nd\"<\/a>Qohum-\u0259qr\u0259ba m\u0259ni sevm\u0259z, xeyir-\u015f\u0259r adam\u0131 deyil\u0259m. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r toylara d\u0259v\u0259t edirdil\u0259r, g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 ki d\u0259v\u0259t cavabs\u0131z qal\u0131r, daha onu da etmirl\u0259r. Yaslar bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r tutmuram, \u00e7\u00fcnki x\u0259b\u0259r ver\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k insanlarla \u0259laq\u0259m k\u0259silib.<\/p>\n

Son d\u0259f\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 Al\u0131\u015f \u0259mimin h\u00fczr\u00fcn\u0259 getmi\u015fdim. Ondan \u00f6nc\u0259 T\u0259rxan day\u0131 r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 getdi, yas\u0131na ged\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. \u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 il ke\u00e7m\u0259sin\u0259 baxmayaraq, h\u0259l\u0259 indi d\u0259 o\u011fullar\u0131 il\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259, g\u00f6z-g\u00f6z\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259kd\u0259n ehtiyat edir\u0259m. El\u0259 bilir\u0259m, m\u0259ni h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131nay\u0131rlar v\u0259 o q\u0131naq onlar\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda, sif\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00fczg\u00fc kimi m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Yad\u0131mda qalan bir s\u0259f\u0259rim d\u0259 olmu\u015fdu, onda Bala\u015f \u0259mi 105 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ona diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxd\u0131qca anlamaq ist\u0259yirdim: g\u00f6r\u0259n, bu q\u0259d\u0259r uzun ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131n bizd\u0259n \u2013 u\u015faqlar\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa kimin\u00e7\u00fcns\u0259 \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259ti varm\u0131? Dostlar\u0131, h\u0259mfikirl\u0259ri, tay-tu\u015flar\u0131 yox, ham\u0131 at\u0131b gedib, t\u0259kc\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc-g\u00fcnd\u0259n y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fdiyi\u00a0v\u0259 ki\u00e7ildiyi\u00a0d\u0259mir \u00e7arpay\u0131s\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa. \u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259z, d\u0259mir dostu da ondan imtina ed\u0259c\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n

Uzun\u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fc insanlar yaln\u0131z t\u0259s\u0259lli \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn var olmal\u0131 deyil, onlar h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcd\u00fcr, yadda\u015f \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fc. Q\u0131sa \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fc insanlar, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 tez itir\u0259n insanlar is\u0259 sevgi \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fcd\u00fcr, onlar sevginin n\u0259 oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131rlar. Onlardan biz\u0259 \u0259b\u0259di sevgi qal\u0131r. H\u0259r bir vaxts\u0131z itki ifad\u0259 ed\u0259 bilm\u0259diyin sevginin d\u0259rin t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf hissini ya\u015fad\u0131r. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00e7evr\u0259y\u0259, insanlara qay\u011f\u0131n, m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tin, diqq\u0259tin daha da art\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Bala\u015f \u0259mimin ya\u015famas\u0131 onun \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n deyildi, narahat idi, \u0259traf\u0131na verdiyi \u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n daha \u00e7ox \u00f6z\u00fc \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kirdi. M\u0259n onun \u0259zab\u0131n\u0131 y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k g\u00fcc\u00fcnd\u0259 deyildim, bu da\u011f k\u0259ndind\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 yaln\u0131z \u0259c\u0259l bax\u0131r. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, d\u00f6vl\u0259td\u0259n d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t ged\u0259 bilm\u0259z. Burada d\u00f6vl\u0259t v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f\u0131n cibind\u0259 toz basm\u0131\u015f pasportundan ba\u015fqa bir \u015fey deyil. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 soru\u015fmu\u015fdum: \u201c\u018fmi, n\u0259yin \u00e7at\u0131\u015fm\u0131r?\u201d \u201c\u00dcnsiyy\u0259tim, bala, dan\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131m adamlar\u201d, \u2013 demi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259hz k\u0259nd yerind\u0259 ah\u0131llar\u0131n ya\u015famaq \u0259zab\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 insanlardan, \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n yox, k\u0259ndd\u0259n k\u00fcsd\u00fcm v\u0259 daha \u0259n x\u0131rda s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259r bel\u0259 ora getm\u0259yim\u0259 mane olurdu.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259diyim x\u0259b\u0259r m\u0259ni i\u015fimd\u0259 yaxalad\u0131, \u0259mimin d\u0259fnin\u0259 yolland\u0131m. Yen\u0259 ham\u0131dan gec \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, yen\u0259 qohumlar\u0131n t\u0259n\u0259li bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 m\u0259ni t\u0259qib edirdi. Yas yerind\u0259, dem\u0259k olar ki, he\u00e7 kiml\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259\u00a0k\u0259sm\u0259dim, bu yerl\u0259rin yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u00f6kl\u0259y\u0259n bir adam var idi, o da r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 getmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Ki\u00e7ik qarda\u015f\u0131m ya\u015fayan ev\u0259 g\u0259ldim, \u00e7ay i\u00e7dim v\u0259 vaxt itirm\u0259d\u0259n geri d\u00f6nd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

N\u00f6vb\u0259ti d\u0259f\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 s\u0259f\u0259rim Al\u0131\u015f \u0259minin d\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259si il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 idi;\u00a0yen\u0259 ham\u0131dan gec getmi\u015fdim. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131, \u00fcst\u0259lik, soyuq k\u00fcl\u0259k b\u0259d\u0259nimi s\u00fczg\u0259c\u0259 \u00e7evirmi\u015fdi, adamlar h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 topla\u015f\u0131b c\u0259naz\u0259nin d\u0259fn\u0259 haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi, m\u0259n is\u0259 soyu\u011fa m\u0259\u011flub oldum, ma\u015f\u0131nda oturub soban\u0131 yand\u0131rd\u0131m, az sonra g\u0259lib irad tutdular ki, gec g\u0259lm\u0259yin bir yana, he\u00e7 olmasa, camaat\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 dur.<\/p>\n

D\u0259fnd\u0259 i\u015ftirak ed\u0259nd\u0259n sonra he\u00e7 kim\u0259 dem\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259rhal geriy\u0259, Bak\u0131ya yol ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

D\u00f6rd qarda\u015f\u0131n sonuncusu Ayxan \u0259mimin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc gec\u0259 4-d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 Faiq dedi: \u201cQobustan\u0131 ke\u00e7mi\u015fik, x\u0259b\u0259rin olsun\u201d. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n \u201cg\u0259lir\u0259m\u201d dey\u0259 cavab verdim.<\/p>\n

K\u00f6n\u00fcl\u0259 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t etdim:<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018fmim r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 gedib, getm\u0259liy\u0259m.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u2013 G\u0259linl\u0259r gedirs\u0259, m\u0259n d\u0259 gedim?<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n, ged\u0259k.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u2013 G\u00f6zl\u0259, gedir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m, g\u0259ldi. H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda K\u00f6n\u00fcl\u0259 baxd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ayaqqab\u0131m\u0131n dabanlar\u0131 h\u00fcnd\u00fcr deyil? \u2013 soru\u015fub, m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ndl\u0259 baxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox, bel\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldi, \u2013 <\/strong>g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00f6l qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xanda t\u0259l\u0259sik geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc, bildim ki, unutdu\u011fu \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259tli bir \u0259\u015fya \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qay\u0131td\u0131 (baxmayaraq ki, \u00e7antas\u0131zd\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259ntiql\u0259 \u201conun dal\u0131nca getdi\u201d dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 bil\u0259rdim), amma d\u0259rhal a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259ldi ki, y\u0259qin, Tengizi \u00f6pm\u0259y\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fc. G\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u201caz qala unudacaqd\u0131m\u201d, \u2013 dedi. Yen\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131mdan ke\u00e7di ki, y\u0259qin, Tengizl\u0259 vidala\u015fma\u011f\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutur.<\/p>\n

K\u0259nd\u0259 bazarl\u0131q etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Masall\u0131 bazar\u0131na d\u00f6nd\u00fck, \u0259limiz\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n ald\u0131q. Yolumuza davam etdik.<\/p>\n

Masall\u0131da bazarl\u0131q etm\u0259k yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, amma bazar\u0131n o hal\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r utancverici bir \u015fey yoxdur, h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f pal\u00e7\u0131q, da\u011f\u0131n\u0131ql\u0131q, s\u0259liq\u0259sizlik, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fck meyv\u0259 zibillikl\u0259ri. Bazar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259n avtomobil yolu el\u0259 bil bombardmandan t\u0259z\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, bir salamat yeri yox…<\/p>\n

\u018fmimin d\u0259fnin\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131r\u0131q, yen\u0259 ham\u0131dan gec. Amma \u00f6n\u0259mli odur ki, g\u0259ldim. \u018fmimin h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 tamamlanmam\u0131\u015f evinin qaba\u011f\u0131ndayam. Eyvana \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 evl\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131ram, F\u0259ti\u015fin evi, arxas\u0131nda S\u0259f\u0259rxan\u0131n, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259tlik Qo\u00e7\u0259linin, qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259tlik \u00c7apar\u0131n, Tavarxan\u0131n v\u0259 dig\u0259rl\u0259rinin damlar\u0131 d\u0259mir v\u0259 azbes \u015fifer par\u00e7alar\u0131ndan yamanm\u0131\u015f miskin k\u0259nd evl\u0259ri… t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259ri il\u0259 q\u00fcrurlu g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131mda dayanan Araza deyir\u0259m, \u0259mim 80 illik h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 bax, bu balaca bir evi tikm\u0259y\u0259 h\u0259sr etdi, tamamlanmaq \u00fczr\u0259ydi, \u00f6z\u00fc getdi. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qura bilm\u0259di, n\u0259 istiy\u0259 \u00e7ar\u0259 tapd\u0131, n\u0259 soyu\u011fa, n\u0259 i\u015f\u0131qs\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa, n\u0259 susuzlu\u011fa. S\u0259ks\u0259n il b\u0259s etm\u0259di… bu balaca ev\u0259. \u00a0\u00dczb\u0259\u00fczd\u0259 evi olan F\u0259ti\u015f \u0259minin \u2013 babalar\u0131m\u0131z \u0259miu\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olub \u2013 hal\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015furam, deyir, o da qocal\u0131b, evd\u0259n bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131r. Evin\u0259 bax\u0131ram, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 ayn\u0259b\u0259ndi ba\u011flanmay\u0131b, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 tualeti h\u0259y\u0259tin o biri ba\u015f\u0131ndad\u0131r \u2013 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn bu ah\u0131l \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda he\u00e7 olmaya tualeti evin i\u00e7ind\u0259 olard\u0131. Y\u0259qin, yerind\u0259 uzan\u0131b d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr ki, Allah bir az da \u00f6m\u00fcr vers\u0259ydi, bu evin yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q i\u015fl\u0259rini tamamlayard\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Dem\u0259k olar ki, bu k\u0259ndin camaat\u0131 ham\u0131s\u0131 bel\u0259dir \u2013 su q\u0131t, i\u015f\u0131q fasil\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 verilir, m\u00fcnbit torpaq yox, geni\u015f otlaq \u0259razil\u0259ri yox, ya\u015fl\u0131-ya\u015fl\u0131 ki\u015fil\u0259rin h\u0259yat\u0131 bir uzun g\u00fcn kimi gedib bat\u0131r, bir-bir tikintisi bitm\u0259d\u0259n k\u00f6hn\u0259l\u0259n evl\u0259ri t\u0259rk edib gedirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Atam da bel\u0259 oldu, \u00fc\u00e7otaql\u0131 ev tikdi, ikinci ota\u011f\u0131n yerini d\u00f6\u015f\u0259y\u0259n\u0259 kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259ri tutuldu, el\u0259 tutuldu ki, he\u00e7 eyn\u0259k d\u0259 taxa bilm\u0259di, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, eyn\u0259kli olanda camaat n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259k, el aras\u0131na nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xacaq, amma k\u0259mf\u00fcrs\u0259t, nam\u0259rd g\u00f6zl\u0259r el\u0259 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 tutuldu ki, he\u00e7 eyn\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k olmad\u0131. Bel\u0259c\u0259, h\u0259yat\u0131 ke\u00e7di v\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 evi tamamlaya bilm\u0259di. 73 ya\u015f\u0131nda r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 getm\u0259zd\u0259n bir g\u00fcn \u00f6nc\u0259 dedim: \u201cS\u0259n gedirs\u0259n art\u0131q, biz s\u0259ni bir daha g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yik?! Bu q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0259ddar olmaq olar?!\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBala, eyvana \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b m\u0259ni s\u0259sl\u0259s\u0259niz, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m, bu da\u011flardan uzaq ged\u0259n deyil\u0259m\u201d, – dedi.<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 bel\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verdi ki, sad\u0259c\u0259 biz o eyvana tez-tez \u00e7\u0131xaq, ordan \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc da\u011flara tutub onu yad ed\u0259k, ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259k, haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015faq, \u00a0o evi t\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259k. Amma dediyi kimi olmad\u0131, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 il sonra o eyvan da, o ev d\u0259 da\u011f\u0131d\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018fmim\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ox\u015fama deyirdil\u0259r. Qad\u0131nlarla ki\u015fil\u0259r ba\u015f-ba\u015fa verib birg\u0259 a\u011flayanda sanki yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 olan b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259sl\u0259r bat\u0131r v\u0259 \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 bu m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m xor s\u0259sl\u0259nir \u2013 \u00a0nizams\u0131z, ritmsiz, amma h\u0259m d\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir nizam i\u00e7ind\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259si ovsunlayan a\u011f\u0131…<\/p>\n

Ham\u0131 bir a\u011f\u0131zdan \u201claylay, \u0259mim, laylay hey!\u201d deyir. S\u0259sin cazib\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, bir azdan onlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda oldu\u011fumu f\u0259rq etdim.<\/p>\n

Bizim adamlar bir h\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131, bir d\u0259 p\u0259sd\u0259n, h\u0259zinl\u0259 ox\u015fama dem\u0259yi \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 bacar\u0131rlar. Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, s\u0259n d\u0259 dizini yer\u0259 at\u0131b s\u0259s \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rim K\u00f6n\u00fcl\u00fc axtard\u0131\u00a0– g\u0259linl\u0259rin aras\u0131ndayd\u0131. O da a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. \u201c\u018fmim\u0259mi, ya b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, kim\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131 bu an, b\u0259lk\u0259 anas\u0131na, b\u0259lk\u0259 atas\u0131na, ya b\u0259lk\u0259 cavan \u00f6l\u0259n qarda\u015f\u0131na… m\u0259nim anama g\u00f6r\u0259, yaxud atama g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 a\u011flaya bil\u0259rdi\u201d. Bilm\u0259dim hardan bu fikir a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259ldi. \u201cM\u0259n niy\u0259 kimins\u0259 h\u0259tta a\u011flama s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rini bilm\u0259liy\u0259m? D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259ri oxumaq kimi bi\u0259d\u0259b fikirl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k r\u0259zillikdir\u201d, \u2013 q\u0131nay\u0131ram \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u018fmini d\u0259fn etdik, yen\u0259 ad\u0259ti pozdum, evl\u0259rinin qaba\u011f\u0131na getm\u0259dim, birba\u015f qarda\u015f\u0131m ya\u015fayan ev\u0259 g\u0259ldim. Odun sobas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda stol qoyub oturdum. G\u0259lin \u00e7ay verdi. K\u00f6n\u00fcl\u00fc soru\u015fdum, dedi h\u0259l\u0259 ordad\u0131, indil\u0259rd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. \u201cTez g\u0259ls\u0259ydi, ged\u0259rdik\u201d, \u2013 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 dedim.<\/p>\n

Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259n sonra h\u00fczrd\u0259 olan dig\u0259r qarda\u015flar da g\u0259ldi, bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131naqla, \u201cham\u0131 orda, s\u0259n is\u0259 burda. K\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc buran\u0131n ad\u0259tin\u0259 uy\u011fun aparmal\u0131san\u201d, \u2013 kims\u0259 dedi. Cavab verm\u0259dim. Birlikd\u0259 yem\u0259k yedik.<\/p>\n

Burada yem\u0259k meditasiyad\u0131r. Hindu\u015fka supu l\u0259zz\u0259tli, yan\u0131nda isti \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k v\u0259 pendir, sonra qat\u0131q, h\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n bir az.<\/p>\n

Qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xanda b\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f\u0131m ac\u0131qla: \u201cS\u0259n toya g\u0259lm\u0259mis\u0259n ki, q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kurtka gey\u0259s\u0259n\u201d, \u2013 m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259n y\u0131\u011f\u0131b haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u201cz\u0259h\u0259ri\u201d \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 atd\u0131. \u201cFikir verm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m\u201d, \u2013 g\u00fcnahkar kimi dill\u0259ndim.<\/p>\n

Yaln\u0131z indi anlad\u0131m ki, \u0259ynimd\u0259 olan g\u00f6d\u0259kc\u0259 qara deyil, onun dediyi kimi tam q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 da olmasa, r\u0259ngliydi.<\/p>\n

\u201cBu r\u0259ng m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, kim \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, kim deyib ki, h\u00fczr yerl\u0259rin\u0259 getm\u0259kd\u0259n daha \u00f6n\u0259mli bir \u015fey var, o da paltar\u0131n r\u0259ngi\u201d.<\/p>\n

Bu fikirl\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259n ayr\u0131ld\u0131q. M\u0259n tez g\u0259ldim, yen\u0259 naraz\u0131 qald\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Hafizin evind\u0259n Seyidl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dirs\u0259kl\u0259rl\u0259 yoxu\u015f, ordan Yard\u0131ml\u0131 \u00e7ay\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r eni\u015f. H\u0259r iki t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 lopa-lopa buludlar kimi k\u0259ndl\u0259r, t\u0259p\u0259likl\u0259r, da\u011flar, \u00e7\u0131lpaq me\u015f\u0259l\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Arxa oturacaqda ortada bac\u0131m, solunda K\u00f6n\u00fcl, sa\u011f\u0131nda is\u0259 yezn\u0259 Ziyar\u0259t oturmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

Arxadak\u0131lar s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Yard\u0131ml\u0131\u2013Masall\u0131 avtomobil yoluna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n sonra m\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u0259dim…<\/p>\n

M\u0259\u011flubedilm\u0259zl\u0259ri yuxu m\u0259\u011flub ed\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Yeriy\u0259n, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t ed\u0259n \u0259ks\u0259r\u0259n qalib olur, u\u011furlu olur.<\/p>\n

Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra hiss etdim ki, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u00fcr\u0259ti artd\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 dik\u0259ld\u0259nd\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n yoldan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131…<\/p>\n

1-ci hiss\u0259nin sonu<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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