\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 bir g\u00fcn qalm\u0131\u015f, yataqdan qalxmamaq bar\u0259d\u0259 ciddi t\u0259kidimiz\u0259 baxmayaraq, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dil\u0259 tutsaq da, atam redaksiyaya getdi. Bu onun, sanki vida gedi\u015fi oldu…
\nAtam v\u0259fat ed\u0259nd\u0259 insanlar gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz, fasil\u0259siz ax\u0131nla g\u0259lib onunla vidala\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar.
\nAnama \u015f\u0259h\u0259r ziyal\u0131lar\u0131 ad\u0131ndan yaz\u0131l\u0131 ba\u015fsa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0259qdim olundu \u2013 g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f l\u00f6vh\u0259y\u0259 atam\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131l \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259y\u0259 al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f portreti yerl\u0259\u015fdirilmi\u015fdi. Ota\u011fa h\u0259r an yeni \u0259klill\u0259r g\u0259tirirdil\u0259r. Onlar \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259rin h\u00fczn ifad\u0259 ed\u0259n s\u00f6zl\u0259r yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f enli mat\u0259m lenti il\u0259 ha\u015fiy\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015fdi v\u0259 \u0259klill\u0259rin say\u0131-hesab\u0131 bilinmirdi.
\nD\u0259fn m\u0259rasimind\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r adam i\u015ftirak edirdi ki, dey\u0259rdin b\u0259s, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u0259h\u0259r bura y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b. M\u0259zar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 vida nitql\u0259ri s\u00f6yl\u0259ndi. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin ba\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 Rayevski dedi:
\n— H\u0259s\u0259n b\u0259yin Dumada s\u00f6yl\u0259diyi nitql\u0259r v\u0259 t\u0259nqidi qeydl\u0259r olmasayd\u0131, Bak\u0131n\u0131n idar\u0259 olunmas\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259n ba\u015f a\u00e7maq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmazd\u0131…
\nBiz d\u0259rin h\u00fczn i\u00e7ind\u0259 donmu\u015fduq. Anam\u0131n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli k\u0259d\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259 donmu\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxma\u011fa qorxurdum. Yan\u0131mda kim is\u0259 z\u00fcl\u00fcm-z\u00fcl\u00fcm g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 ax\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rimin qaba\u011f\u0131ndan cans\u0131z foto\u015f\u0259kill\u0259r kimi \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259 toxunmadan, amma yadda\u015fa h\u0259kk olunan o d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli g\u00fcn\u00fcn hadis\u0259l\u0259ri birc\u0259-birc\u0259 g\u0259lib ke\u00e7irdi.
\nC\u0259naz\u0259nin yan\u0131nda dayan\u0131b m\u0259rhumun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda son \u015f\u0259r\u0259f v\u0259 v\u0259zif\u0259 borclar\u0131n\u0131 yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259n g\u00f6rk\u0259mli \u015f\u0259h\u0259r n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259rinin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 ciddi k\u0259d\u0259r ifad\u0259si donmu\u015fdu. Onlar\u0131n arxas\u0131nda insan \u00fcmman\u0131 calxalan\u0131rd\u0131–d\u0259rin q\u0131r\u0131\u015flarla \u00f6rt\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f \u00fczl\u0259rd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00fcmidsizlik v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r iztirab hissl\u0259ri bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu kas\u0131b insanlar \u00f6z q\u0131z\u011f\u0131n, at\u0259\u015fli m\u00fcdafi\u0259\u00e7il\u0259ri v\u0259 s\u0259daq\u0259tli o\u011fullar\u0131 il\u0259 vidala\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar.
\nBu d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 m\u0259nim p\u0259ri\u015fan \u015f\u00fcurumda bizim ail\u0259y\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 m\u0259lum olan bir hadis\u0259nin xatir\u0259si ba\u015f qald\u0131rd\u0131. Atam onu na\u011f\u0131l etm\u0259yi xo\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131.
\nHadis\u0259 bel\u0259 olmu\u015fdu. Atam ehtiyac\u0131 olan kas\u0131b \u015fagirdl\u0259r\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn xeyriyy\u0259 c\u0259miyy\u0259ti yaradanda b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc ona s\u0259rf edirdi ki, c\u0259miyy\u0259t\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox \u00fczv c\u0259lb etsin. O bir q\u0259bul ota\u011f\u0131ndan o birin\u0259, bir t\u0259mt\u0259raql\u0131 salondan o biri z\u0259ngin salona, bir f\u0259ras\u0259tli i\u015fbaz\u0131n yan\u0131ndan o biri har\u0131nlam\u0131\u015f mesenat\u0131n q\u0259buluna gedirdi. Bu, \u00abdil\u0259n\u00e7ilik\u00bb atama a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259ls\u0259 d\u0259, onun q\u0259lbini \u0259zs\u0259 d\u0259, geri \u00e7\u0259kilmirdi…
\nBir d\u0259f\u0259 atam bir ne\u00e7\u0259 yerd\u0259n r\u0259dd cavab\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u2013 gah soyuq n\u0259zak\u0259tl\u0259, gah h\u0259yas\u0131zcas\u0131na, gah da istehzal\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f formas\u0131nda. Budur, daha bir z\u0259ngin malikan\u0259nin a\u011f\u0131r qap\u0131s\u0131 onun arxas\u0131nca \u00f6rt\u00fcld\u00fc. Xahi\u015f-minn\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n H\u0259s\u0259n b\u0259y dodaqlar\u0131nda g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f olan xidm\u0259t\u00e7il\u0259rin onun b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 niz\u0259 kimi sanc\u0131lan v\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck aynan\u0131n g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f s\u0259thind\u0259 \u0259ks olunan soyuq bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z k\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 hiss edirdi. Qulaqlar\u0131nda is\u0259, imkanl\u0131 \u00abxeyirxah\u0131n\u00bb nifr\u0259t dolu s\u0259si cingild\u0259yirdi. O, xahi\u015f\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n ziyal\u0131n\u0131 bayaqdan inand\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, onun xahi\u015fi tamam m\u0259nas\u0131zd\u0131r. Atam, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 iyr\u0259nibmi\u015f kimi, \u00e7iyinl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f, d\u0259rin nifr\u0259t v\u0259 m\u0259yusluq hissi yaradan bu q\u0131z\u0131l yuvas\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rk etmi\u015fdi.
\nYol ged\u0259rk\u0259n dola\u015f\u0131q fikirl\u0259rd\u0259n add\u0131mlar\u0131 get-ged\u0259 a\u011f\u0131rla\u015f\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, sin\u0259sin\u0259 sallan\u0131rd\u0131. Bird\u0259n hiss etdi ki, kims\u0259 qoluna toxundu. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda duran hambal\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Ki\u015finin 40-a yax\u0131n ya\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin pay verdiyi b\u00fcr\u00fcnc r\u0259ng \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc, g\u00fccl\u00fc boynunu v\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini qal\u0131n qatlarla \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. K\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 palan, ayaqlar\u0131nda \u00e7ar\u0131q vard\u0131. Atam\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131nda dayan\u0131b m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259 onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131, dodaqlar\u0131na utancaq t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm qonmu\u015fdu:
\n— E\u015fitmi\u015f\u0259m bizim u\u015faqlar\u0131 oxutmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn pul y\u0131\u011f\u0131rsan. M\u0259n bir az qazanm\u0131\u015fam. Budur, g\u00f6t\u00fcr. Ki\u015fi x\u0259cal\u0259tli halda g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yana \u00e7evirdi. \u2013Bilir\u0259m: azd\u0131r, amma \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259ndir.
\nAtam onun barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131xd\u0131. Xeyli vaxt h\u0259y\u0259candan dan\u0131\u015fa bilm\u0259di. N\u0259hay\u0259t, dill\u0259ndi:
\n— \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol, dostum! S\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r pul verdin ki, onu m\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131mda he\u00e7 kimd\u0259n almam\u0131\u015fam. \u00c7\u00fcnki s\u0259n n\u0259yin varsa, ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 verdin…
\nBu gun atamla son d\u0259f\u0259 vidala\u015fanda m\u0259n x\u00fcsusi ayd\u0131nl\u0131qla d\u0259rk etdim ki, onun butun h\u0259yat\u0131 yaln\u0131z bu sad\u0259 insanlar\u0131n q\u0259lbind\u0259 \u2013 bu g\u00fcn geyimli-kecimli v\u0259 \u0259tirli c\u0259nablar\u0131n arxas\u0131nda d\u0259rya kimi \u00e7alxalanan m\u0259zlumlar\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 \u0259ks-s\u0259da tap\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259la\u011f\u0259tli s\u00f6zl\u0259r dey\u0259n \u0259tirli c\u0259nablar\u0131n \u00e7oxu yorulmaz m\u00fcbariz\u0259nin taleyin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131, \u0259n az\u0131 laqeyd idi. Arxa planda duran m\u0259zlumlar, varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259r saat\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z olaraq onlara ver\u0259n m\u0259rhumun c\u0259naz\u0259sin\u0259 baxark\u0259n, nec\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck dostu itirdikl\u0259rini bu g\u00fcn daha d\u0259rind\u0259n d\u0259rk edirdil\u0259r\u2026<\/p>\n
\u0130sam\u0259ddin \u018fhm\u0259dov<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 bir g\u00fcn qalm\u0131\u015f, yataqdan qalxmamaq bar\u0259d\u0259 ciddi t\u0259kidimiz\u0259 baxmayaraq, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dil\u0259 tutsaq da, atam redaksiyaya getdi. Bu onun, sanki vida gedi\u015fi oldu… Atam v\u0259fat ed\u0259nd\u0259 insanlar gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz, fasil\u0259siz ax\u0131nla g\u0259lib onunla vidala\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Anama \u015f\u0259h\u0259r ziyal\u0131lar\u0131 ad\u0131ndan yaz\u0131l\u0131 ba\u015fsa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0259qdim olundu \u2013 g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f l\u00f6vh\u0259y\u0259 atam\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131l \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259y\u0259 al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f portreti yerl\u0259\u015fdirilmi\u015fdi. Ota\u011fa h\u0259r an yeni […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":26150,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-22206","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-kinci-zrdab-ziyali-qzet-tbitsunas"},"yoast_head":"\n