Biri bu d\u00fcnyada 10 il ya\u015fay\u0131r, biri 30, dig\u0259ri d\u0259 65. Ancaq kimin bu d\u00fcnyadan nec\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259yini he\u00e7 k\u0259s bilmir. \u0130ndi o d\u00f6vrd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q ki, insanlar\u0131n b\u0259zil\u0259ri \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259yini, bir g\u00fcn bu h\u0259yat\u0131 t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259yini a\u011fl\u0131na bel\u0259 g\u0259tirmir. O da bir vaxtlar bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rd\u00fc. Fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259rdi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 cavan qalacaq. Bir g\u00fcn qocal\u0131b \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yini t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259tirmirdi.<\/p>\n
K\u00fcr \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131n sahilind\u0259 oturub d\u0259rin x\u0259yala dalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131 kino lenti kimi g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Ancaq \u00fcr\u0259yi ist\u0259diyi kimi al\u0131nm\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0259rib\u0259dir ki, bir vaxt \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn \u0259sas par\u00e7as\u0131 olan hadis\u0259l\u0259rin \u00e7oxunu yad\u0131na sala bilmirdi. H\u0259bsxanadan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 3 ay \u0259rzind\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, 15 il \u0259vv\u0259l t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyi \u00f6l\u00fcm hadis\u0259sin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 pe\u015fman olmu\u015fdu. O vaxt i\u00e7ki a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndan nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131sa, bu d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli hadis\u0259ni nec\u0259 t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyini xat\u0131rlaya bilmirdi. Zarafat deyildi, 50 ya\u015f\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259diyi d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli cinay\u0259t\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 15 ild\u0259n art\u0131q h\u0259bs c\u0259zas\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, 50 ya\u015f\u0131nda h\u0259bs\u0259 gir\u0259nd\u0259 ham\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n sa\u011f \u00e7\u0131xmayacaq. Siqaretd\u0259n d\u0259rin bir qullab al\u0131b ciy\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. Ancaq i\u015fl\u0259diyi cinay\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259 el\u0259 bir yara a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, bir yox, lap y\u00fcz siqaretl\u0259 d\u0259 unudulan deyildi…<\/p>\n
U\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131, g\u0259nclik ill\u0259ri g\u0259ldi g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na. 65 ya\u015f\u0131 yenic\u0259 tamam olsa da, el\u0259 bilirdi ki, d\u00fcnyaya d\u00fcn\u0259n g\u0259lib. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, bu ya\u015fda olmas\u0131na \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 inanmaq ist\u0259mirdi. Bu ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 hans\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, insanlar\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131nda nec\u0259 bir insan kimi qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131? \u00d6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra arxas\u0131nca “Allah r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259sin” dey\u0259n olacaqd\u0131m\u0131? G\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu, g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 yana\u011f\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. \u018ftrafa boyland\u0131 v\u0259 tez g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sildi ki, bird\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcb el\u0259y\u0259n olar.<\/p>\n
K\u00fcr\u00fcn suyu h\u0259zin-h\u0259zin, aram-aram, d\u0259rdsiz-d\u0259rdsiz ax\u0131rd\u0131. Sular \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259n qalxan s\u0259rin v\u0259 t\u0259miz havan\u0131 ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq aya\u011fa durub k\u0259nd q\u0259biristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na do\u011fru ir\u0259lil\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Q\u0259biristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n darvazas\u0131ndan i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. \u018ftrafda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc q\u0259birl\u0259rd\u0259 yatanlar\u0131n \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti onun ya\u015f\u0131dlar\u0131 idi. Biri 60, o biri 65, dig\u0259ri 70 ya\u015f\u0131nda d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. G\u00f6z\u00fc \u015eakirin q\u0259brin\u0259 sata\u015fd\u0131. \u015eakir 25 ya\u015f\u0131nda d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. U\u015faq vaxt\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onunla birg\u0259 oynayan \u018fl\u00f6vs\u0259t, dost deyib bir yerd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fc \u0130brahim, sinif yolda\u015flar\u0131 \u018fkb\u0259r, S\u00fcr\u0259yya, Mehriban da burada idil\u0259r…<\/p>\n
Q\u0259biristanl\u0131q \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259 yerdir, insan burada sanki qeyri-adi, ona tan\u0131\u015f olmayan hissl\u0259r ke\u00e7irir. Valideynl\u0259rinin q\u0259brinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Cavanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u0259rk\u00f6y\u00fcnl\u00fck edib anas\u0131na-atas\u0131na o q\u0259d\u0259r z\u00fclm etmi\u015fdi ki. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc u\u015faq z\u0259nn etdi. Fikirl\u0259\u015fdi y\u0259qin anas\u0131 yan\u0131nda olsa, onun \u0259lind\u0259n tutar, aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yer\u0259 s\u00fcrt\u0259-s\u00fcrt\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 k\u0259ndin toz-topraql\u0131 yolu il\u0259 bazara ged\u0259rdi. Anas\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259brinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015f qar topas\u0131n\u0131 \u0259li il\u0259 t\u0259mizl\u0259yib \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmadan M\u0259ry\u0259m yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f yerd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n i\u015fin\u0259 bax, uzun ill\u0259r yataqda a\u011f\u0131r x\u0259st\u0259 yatan anas\u0131na bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259n insan indi i\u00e7ind\u0259ki h\u0259sr\u0259ti, q\u0259h\u0259ri bo\u011fmaq v\u0259 t\u0259skinlik tapmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn anas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131ndan \u00f6p\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
“Ah, ata!” deyib d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131. “Dedikl\u0259rin\u0259 qulaq asmad\u0131m, ey\u015f-i\u015fr\u0259t\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r ba\u011fland\u0131m ki, s\u0259ninl\u0259 d\u0259, \u0259trafdak\u0131larla da, qohum-\u0259qraba il\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n oldum. “O\u011flum evl\u0259n, evl\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bir g\u00fcn a\u011fla” dedin son n\u0259f\u0259sin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r. Qulaq asmad\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 dedim ki, bu d\u00fcnya kef d\u00fcnyas\u0131d\u0131r. G\u00f6r indi d\u00fcnyan\u0131n haras\u0131d\u0131r ki, 65 ya\u015f\u0131mda pe\u015fman olmu\u015fam”…<\/p>\n
\u0130\u00e7ki m\u0259clisl\u0259rind\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onunla bir s\u00fcfr\u0259 arxas\u0131nda oturan, can deyib can e\u015fitdiyi \u018fl\u0259ddinin q\u0259brin\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Q\u0259bir\u0259 baxanda hiss olunurdu ki, xeyli m\u00fcdd\u0259tdir \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n olmay\u0131b. Q\u0259brin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc toz, \u0259traf\u0131n\u0131 kol-kos basm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. “\u00c7\u0259tin g\u00fcnd\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bir yerd\u0259” deyib bad\u0259 qald\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131, sa\u011fl\u0131qlar dediyi dostlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, he\u00e7 olmasa \u018fl\u0259ddin d\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdil\u0259rmi? \u0130nanm\u0131rd\u0131… \u00c7\u00fcnki ya\u015fca ondan qat-qat ki\u00e7ik olan “dostlar”\u0131 h\u0259bs\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun onun yan\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r. He\u00e7 azadl\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra da onu yada salmad\u0131lar. \u00c7\u00fcnki bilirdil\u0259r ki, qocal\u0131b, \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, daha \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi i\u00e7ki m\u0259clisl\u0259rin\u0259 yaram\u0131r.<\/p>\n
N\u0259f\u0259si olsayd\u0131, yorulmasayd\u0131, q\u0259biristanl\u0131qdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b k\u0259nd\u0259 do\u011fru qa\u00e7ar v\u0259 “M\u0259nim bu hal\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fczm\u00fc?” dey\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rard\u0131. Ancaq… E\u015fid\u0259n, bil\u0259n n\u0259 dey\u0259rdi? Ke\u00e7mi\u015f “dostlar\u0131” g\u00fclm\u0259zdil\u0259rmi ona? Camaat dem\u0259zdimi buna bax, 65 ya\u015f\u0131nda…<\/p>\n
Q\u0259biristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 insanlar\u0131n q\u0259birl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 dayan\u0131b diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxd\u0131. Aya\u011f\u0131 donmu\u015fdu. Ill\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259l i\u00e7kinin t\u0259siri il\u0259 adi bir hadis\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 q\u0259tl\u0259 yetirdiyi Q\u00fcdr\u0259tin q\u0259brinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 ayaq saxlad\u0131. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259 Q\u00fcdr\u0259td\u0259n \u00fczr ist\u0259di, ba\u011f\u0131\u015flas\u0131n dey\u0259 ona yalvar\u0131b yaxard\u0131. “G\u00fcnahs\u0131z yer\u0259 s\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn indi \u00e7ox pe\u015fmanam, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni”,-dedi v\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131…<\/p>\n
\u00dcr\u0259yi a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131, g\u00fccl\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0259biristanl\u0131qdan \u00e7\u0131xanda ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, bir azdan yenid\u0259n bura qay\u0131dacaq… \u0130\u00e7ini qorxu b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc v\u0259 iti add\u0131mlarla oradan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Uzaqdan durub bayaqdan onu m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 ed\u0259n g\u0259nc he\u00e7 n\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259di…<\/p>\n
Nicat \u0130ntiqam<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Biri bu d\u00fcnyada 10 il ya\u015fay\u0131r, biri 30, dig\u0259ri d\u0259 65. Ancaq kimin bu d\u00fcnyadan nec\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259yini he\u00e7 k\u0259s bilmir. \u0130ndi o d\u00f6vrd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q ki, insanlar\u0131n b\u0259zil\u0259ri \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259yini, bir g\u00fcn bu h\u0259yat\u0131 t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259yini a\u011fl\u0131na bel\u0259 g\u0259tirmir. O da bir vaxtlar bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rd\u00fc. Fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259rdi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 cavan qalacaq. Bir g\u00fcn qocal\u0131b \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yini t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259tirmirdi. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[23],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-24958","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-dbiyyat"},"yoast_head":"\n