\u0130nsan h\u0259r v\u0259zif\u0259y\u0259 ucala, h\u0259r c\u00fcr naz-nem\u0259t\u0259 sahib ola bil\u0259r. Amma ki\u00e7ik g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz, b\u0259z\u0259n f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z el\u0259 m\u0259qamlar da var ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259 bilir. \u0130yrimi ya\u015f\u0131nda do\u011fma k\u0259ndini t\u0259rk etmi\u015f, ail\u0259nin yegan\u0259 \u00f6vlad\u0131 olan Eldar day\u0131 da bu g\u00fcn h\u0259min an\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. N\u0259hay\u0259t, 38 il sonra do\u011fma k\u0259ndini ziyar\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259ldiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn o \u00e7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt idi…<\/p>\n
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\u0130st\u0259r Sovet d\u00f6vr\u00fcnd\u0259, ist\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259, m\u00fcst\u0259qillik ill\u0259rind\u0259 Bak\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259 m\u00fcxt\u0259lif y\u00fcks\u0259k v\u0259zif\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 Eldar m\u00fc\u0259llim. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc tan\u0131dandan sonra \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259n ki\u00e7ik v\u0259zif\u0259 zavod direktorlu\u011fu olmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n
\u0130lk ill\u0259r do\u011fulub boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 rayondan hans\u0131sa i\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ona m\u00fcraci\u0259t ed\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259klik ed\u0259r, yard\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 \u0259sirg\u0259m\u0259zdi. Amma zaman ke\u00e7di, yeni tan\u0131\u015flar, yeni dostlar tapd\u0131, imkan\u0131 daha da geni\u015fl\u0259ndi v\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259ri o q\u0259d\u0259r artd\u0131 ki, \u00fcr\u0259yinin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259ki bu hissl\u0259r z\u0259ifl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u015e\u0259h\u0259rli bir xan\u0131mla ail\u0259 qurdu, \u00f6vladlar\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra ba\u015f\u0131 daha da qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131…<\/p>\n
K\u0259nd\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259 vaxt\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ilk ill\u0259r valideynl\u0259ri onu ziyar\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lirdil\u0259r. Ata-anas\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r h\u0259yat\u0131na \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdi, d\u00f6rd divar aras\u0131nda s\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131qlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn iki-\u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn qalandan sonra geriy\u0259 – k\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259rdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n
H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 yola d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 Eldara dil-a\u011f\u0131z ed\u0259rdil\u0259r ki, he\u00e7 olmasa iki-\u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u0259 k\u0259ndin\u0259, ev-e\u015fiyin\u0259 g\u0259lsin. Ya\u015fl\u0131 n\u0259n\u0259si d\u0259 son n\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 Eldar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259yi arzulay\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n
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Atas\u0131 narahat idi ki, sabah, birig\u00fcn d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n sonra ev-e\u015fiyi, h\u0259y\u0259t bacas\u0131 yiy\u0259siz qalacaq, sahib \u00e7\u0131xan olmayacaq. Lakin Eldar h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bir b\u0259han\u0259 il\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 getm\u0259kd\u0259n boyun qa\u00e7\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fslind\u0259 is\u0259 Eldar \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilmirdi ki, \u00e7ox \u015fey itirir…<\/p>\n
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\u0130ll\u0259r \u00f6td\u00fc, zaman ke\u00e7di v\u0259 ham\u0131 kimi bir g\u00fcn Eldar\u0131n valideynl\u0259ri d\u0259 d\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fcl\u0259r. Ata-anas\u0131 h\u0259min g\u00fcn\u0259d\u0259k Eldar\u0131 k\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u011flaya bil\u0259c\u0259k yegan\u0259 varl\u0131qlar idil\u0259r. El\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 onlar\u0131n yas m\u0259rasiml\u0259rind\u0259n sonra Eldar\u0131 bir daha do\u011fuldu\u011fu k\u0259ndd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm dey\u0259n olmad\u0131…<\/p>\n
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V\u0259zif\u0259, imkan art\u0131r, Eldar ya\u015fa dolur, \u00f6vladlar\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. M\u0259zuniyy\u0259t vaxt\u0131 ail\u0259si il\u0259 birg\u0259 \u00e7ox \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r g\u0259zdi, \u00e7ox g\u00f6rm\u0259li yerl\u0259r g\u00f6rd\u00fc, t\u0259kc\u0259 do\u011fuldu\u011fu k\u0259nd\u0259 getm\u0259di. Q\u0131z\u0131, o\u011flu k\u0259nd arzulayanda bel\u0259 onlar\u0131n arzular\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259 qoydu, el\u0259 bildi ki, k\u0259nd\u0259 getm\u0259kl\u0259 n\u0259yis\u0259 \u0259skil\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 bir daha oradan \u00e7\u0131xa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k…<\/p>\n
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B\u00f6y\u00fck o\u011flu Arif h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259ti ba\u015fa vurandan sonra Amerikada ali m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 q\u0259bul oldu v\u0259 ora k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fc. Q\u0131z\u0131 G\u00fcnel is\u0259 ali t\u0259hsil almaq ist\u0259m\u0259di v\u0259 sevib-se\u00e7diyi o\u011flanla ail\u0259 qurdu. \u00d6vladlar\u0131 onlardan ayr\u0131landan sonra evl\u0259rind\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 sakitlik, t\u0259nhal\u0131q h\u00f6km s\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Amma bu t\u0259nhal\u0131q, s\u0259ssizlik onlar i\u015f\u0259 yollananad\u0259k davam edirdi. \u0130\u015f\u0259 \u00e7atandan sonra ba\u015flar\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fard\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey yaddan \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131. Eldar day\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 Almaz xan\u0131m is\u0259 ali m\u0259kt\u0259bl\u0259rin birind\u0259 d\u0259rs deyirdi. Onun da g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00e7ox hiss\u0259si i\u015f yerind\u0259 ke\u00e7diyind\u0259n ilk ill\u0259r el\u0259 bir naraz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 yox idi…<\/p>\n
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Ali t\u0259hsili ba\u015fa vurandan sonra o\u011flu Arif geri-v\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259diyini v\u0259 Amerikada ya\u015fama\u011fa q\u0259rar verdiyini s\u00f6yl\u0259di. \u0130lk g\u00fcnl\u0259r o\u011flunun bu q\u0259rar\u0131na bir q\u0259d\u0259r soyuqqanl\u0131 yana\u015fd\u0131lar. Amma e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 Arif Amerikada tan\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu \u0259cn\u0259bi bir xan\u0131mla ail\u0259 qurmaq ist\u0259yir, d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259dil\u0259r. B\u0259s ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 y\u0131\u011fd\u0131qlar\u0131 var-d\u00f6vl\u0259t kim\u0259 qalacaqd\u0131? B\u0259s \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259rinin \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fcnl\u0259rini x\u0259rcl\u0259m\u0259k hesab\u0131na ald\u0131qlar\u0131 m\u00fclkl\u0259r\u0259 kim sahib \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131? Eldar day\u0131 o\u011flunu yola g\u0259tirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox c\u0259hd el\u0259di. H\u0259tta onu fikrind\u0259n da\u015f\u0131nd\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 birg\u0259 Amerikaya da yolland\u0131. Amma xeyri olmad\u0131…<\/p>\n
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Pensiya ya\u015f\u0131 \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda ham\u0131 onu canla-ba\u015fla yola sald\u0131. \u0130lk g\u00fcnl\u0259r evin\u0259 g\u0259lib-ged\u0259n \u00e7ox oldu, z\u0259ngl\u0259rin ard\u0131-aras\u0131 k\u0259silm\u0259di. Bir-iki ay sonra is\u0259 n\u0259 evin\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n oldu, n\u0259 d\u0259 z\u0259ng vurub axtaran. Evd\u0259 \u00e7ox dar\u0131xd\u0131, \u00e7ox s\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 bu \u00e7\u0259tin anlardan qurtular dey\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131ndan i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b evd\u0259 oturma\u011f\u0131 xahi\u015f etdi, amma he\u00e7 n\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi olmad\u0131…<\/p>\n
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Onu axtarmayan dostlar\u0131n\u0131, tan\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 indi \u00f6z\u00fc axtar\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259tta onlar\u0131n i\u015f yerl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. \u0130lk g\u00fcnl\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fc adamlar onu mehribanl\u0131qla qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131lar, lakin g\u0259li\u015f-gedi\u015fl\u0259rin say\u0131 artd\u0131qca ya yerl\u0259rind\u0259 “tap\u0131lmad\u0131lar”, ya “vaxtlar\u0131 olmad\u0131”, ya da katib\u0259l\u0259ri vasit\u0259sil\u0259 Eldar day\u0131ya “getsin, sonra g\u0259l\u0259r” mesaj\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131lar…<\/p>\n
H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u0259li \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Xeyli m\u00fcdd\u0259t idi ki, o\u011flu Arif d\u0259 z\u0259ng vurmurdu. Q\u0131z\u0131 G\u00fcnel is\u0259 Rusiyaya – \u0259rinin yan\u0131na yollanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 olmasa onlara ged\u0259rdi, ba\u015f\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fard\u0131. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ba\u015fqa qohumu yox idi ki, qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6ys\u00fcn, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259kil\u0259ri b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn…<\/p>\n
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…Bu g\u00fcn Eldar day\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131nda bir ba\u015fqa g\u00fcn idi. Psixoloqun t\u00f6vsiy\u0259si il\u0259 do\u011fulub boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Psixoloq demi\u015fdi ki, k\u0259nd\u0259, \u00f6z ata-baba evin\u0259 gets\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 stressd\u0259n, t\u0259nhal\u0131qdan yaxa qurtarar, fikri da\u011f\u0131lar…<\/p>\n
…Bu g\u00fcn Eldar day\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131nda bir ba\u015fqa g\u00fcn idi. 62 ya\u015f\u0131nda, d\u00fcz 38 il sonra \u00f6z ata-baba m\u0259hl\u0259sin\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n
H\u0259y\u0259tin qam\u0131\u015fdan h\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f \u00e7\u0259p\u0259ri u\u00e7ub da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Atas\u0131n\u0131n ill\u0259r \u00f6nc\u0259 \u0259kib b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcy\u00fc a\u011faclar\u0131n \u00e7oxu qurumu\u015fdu. H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki g\u00fcl kollar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7oxunu \u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259n qay\u0131dan heyvanlar b\u0259rbad hala salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Evin divarlar\u0131 \u00e7at-\u00e7at idi. Aynalar\u0131n \u00e7oxunun g\u00fczg\u00fcl\u0259ri q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Eyvan\u0131 toz basm\u0131\u015fd\u0131…<\/p>\n
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H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 durub h\u0259y\u0259canla \u0259traf\u0131 seyr edirdi. Yax\u0131nl\u0131qda xan\u0131m\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 kim olmasa da, h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki tikilil\u0259rin \u00e7oxu u\u00e7ub da\u011f\u0131lsa da, h\u0259r \u015fey s\u0259liq\u0259siz g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u0259 d\u0259 dar\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131. U\u00e7ub da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, s\u0259liq\u0259siz h\u0259y\u0259t ona \u00e7ox do\u011fma g\u0259lirdi. H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 qurumu\u015f a\u011faclara, g\u00fcl kollar\u0131na baxd\u0131qdan sonra \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ona tutub: “Heyif, vaxt\u0131nda \u00e7ox s\u0259liq\u0259li h\u0259y\u0259t olub dey\u0259s\u0259n. Eldar, biz indiy\u0259 kimi bura niy\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fik?”,- dedi. \u00d6m\u00fcrg\u00fcn yolda\u015f\u0131 Almaz\u0131n bu irad\u0131 el\u0259 bil Eldar\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n tikan \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131. Sanki u\u015faqla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ist\u0259yirdi ki, kims\u0259 onu bu q\u0259bah\u0259tin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 t\u0259nbeh el\u0259sin, danlas\u0131n, o da ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b dinm\u0259zc\u0259 dursun…<\/p>\n
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H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 Almazla birg\u0259 k\u0259nd q\u0259biristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na yolland\u0131. Q\u0259biristanl\u0131q qoruq\u00e7usunun k\u00f6m\u0259yi il\u0259 ata-anas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259traf\u0131n\u0131 ot-alaf basm\u0131s q\u0259birl\u0259rini tapd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259, \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 valideynl\u0259ri il\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fdi, onlardan \u00fczr ist\u0259di. \u018fli il\u0259 q\u0259birl\u0259rin \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131 kol-kosu, otu t\u0259mizl\u0259di. \u00c7ox pe\u015fman olmu\u015fdu uzun ill\u0259r bura g\u0259lm\u0259diyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259…<\/p>\n
Q\u0259biristanl\u0131qdan \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra xan\u0131m\u0131na k\u0259ndi pay-piyada g\u0259zm\u0259yi t\u0259klif etdi. May ay\u0131 oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn k\u0259nd h\u0259yat\u0131 daha da c\u0259zbedici, g\u00f6z\u0259l idi. T\u0259bi\u0259t yenid\u0259n oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, otlar\u0131n, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin, g\u00fcll\u0259rin iyi bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qu\u015flar\u0131n ciggiltisi ona u\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259rini xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 Almaza haqq qazand\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 onun bayaq verdiyi sual\u0131 bir daha t\u0259krarlad\u0131: “H\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n, ax\u0131 nec\u0259 olub ki, bu ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 k\u0259ndimiz\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, \u00f6vladlar\u0131m\u0131, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131 buralara g\u0259tirm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m?”.<\/p>\n
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\u015e\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131 Eldar day\u0131. Amma bu d\u0259f\u0259 daha haz\u0131rl\u0131ql\u0131 geri d\u00f6nm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn…<\/p>\n
O\u011flu Arif\u0259 m\u0259ktub yaz\u0131b onu Amerikada ail\u0259 qurdu\u011fu qad\u0131nla birg\u0259 \u00f6z ata-baba m\u0259hl\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259kdi. Qoy Arif d\u0259, xan\u0131m\u0131 da g\u0259lib k\u0259ndd\u0259ki bu g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi, bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni, bu do\u011fmal\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rs\u00fcnl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Yol boyu Arif\u0259 yazaca\u011f\u0131 m\u0259ktub \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 qeydl\u0259r apar\u0131rd\u0131: “Arif, indi m\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fsayd\u0131lar ki, h\u0259yatda \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259hvin n\u0259dir, dey\u0259rdim ki, bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun do\u011fulub boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131m k\u0259nd\u0259, h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 getm\u0259m\u0259yim. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u00e7ox yerini g\u0259zdim, \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259rini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, ancaq onlar\u0131n he\u00e7 biri m\u0259ni bu q\u0259d\u0259r rahatla\u015fd\u0131rmad\u0131, sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259di. \u018fg\u0259r el\u0259 bir imkan\u0131m olsayd\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn insanlara s\u0259sl\u0259n\u0259rdim: do\u011fuldu\u011funuz el-oban\u0131 yaddan \u00e7\u0131xarmay\u0131n”…<\/p>\n
Nicat \u0130ntiqam<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u0130nsan h\u0259r v\u0259zif\u0259y\u0259 ucala, h\u0259r c\u00fcr naz-nem\u0259t\u0259 sahib ola bil\u0259r. Amma ki\u00e7ik g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz, b\u0259z\u0259n f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z el\u0259 m\u0259qamlar da var ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259 bilir. \u0130yrimi ya\u015f\u0131nda do\u011fma k\u0259ndini t\u0259rk etmi\u015f, ail\u0259nin yegan\u0259 \u00f6vlad\u0131 olan Eldar day\u0131 da bu g\u00fcn h\u0259min an\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. N\u0259hay\u0259t, 38 il sonra do\u011fma k\u0259ndini ziyar\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259ldiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn o \u00e7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":27125,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[23],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-24998","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-dbiyyat"},"yoast_head":"\n