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M\u00fc\u0259llif: Lo\u011fman<\/strong><\/span><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

U\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131 50-60-c\u0131 ill\u0259rd\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n insanlar s\u00f6z d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n kimi o ill\u0259rin \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yind\u0259n b\u0259h-b\u0259hl\u0259, m\u0259mnunluqla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar. O ill\u0259rin \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini bel\u0259 l\u0259ziz ed\u0259n t\u0259kc\u0259 unu, suyu, duzu deyildi. H\u0259m d\u0259 ona olan m\u00fcnasib\u0259t idi. O ill\u0259rin \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r halall\u0131qla, z\u0259hm\u0259tl\u0259 qazan\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131sa, o q\u0259d\u0259r \u015firin olurdu. O ill\u0259rin \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yinin qatq\u0131s\u0131 yox idi. \u0130nsanlar \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k qazanma\u011f\u0131n ancaq halal yolunu bilirdil\u0259r, bic yolunu bilmirdil\u0259r h\u0259l\u0259. Bic yolnan qazan\u0131lan \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin t\u0259n\u0259si, t\u00f6hm\u0259ti a\u011f\u0131r olurdu. O ill\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin \u00f6p\u00fcl\u00fcb g\u00f6z \u00fcst\u0259 qoyulan vaxt\u0131 idi. O ill\u0259rin \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi and yeri idi…<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

…Anam\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k bi\u015firm\u0259yi bir \u00f6zg\u0259 hadis\u0259 idi. Anam x\u0259miri o q\u0259d\u0259r yo\u011fururdu ki, aln\u0131nda t\u0259r pu\u00e7urlay\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 bil h\u0259kim h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 xilas etm\u0259k ist\u0259diyi x\u0259st\u0259nin \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. O deyirdi ki, x\u0259mirin g\u0259r\u0259k damar\u0131n\u0131 tutasan. X\u0259miri g\u0259r\u0259k s\u00fcd\u00fc \u00e7\u0131xana kimi yo\u011furasan, yoxsa \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k k\u00fct ged\u0259r, xeyir-b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti qa\u00e7ar, l\u0259zz\u0259ti olmaz. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 bel\u0259 ed\u0259rdi. Bu \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin \u0259tri m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259ni b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259rdi. Bu \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin dad\u0131-tam\u0131 ba\u015fqa idi. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k bi\u015f\u0259n\u0259 kimi t\u0259ndirin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdirib s\u0259birsizlikl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. T\u0259z\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259 evimiz\u0259, ruhumuza bir istilik g\u0259lirdi. El\u0259 bilirdik ki, anam\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yind\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kdiyi z\u0259hm\u0259tin qoxusu, anam\u0131n \u00f6z \u0259tri g\u0259lir. Onu h\u0259m d\u0259 qoxulamaqdan h\u0259zz al\u0131rd\u0131m. M\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259, \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259-bay\u0131rda k\u00f6n\u00fcl xo\u015flu\u011fu il\u0259 dostlar\u0131ma, sinif yolda\u015flar\u0131ma bu \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kd\u0259n verm\u0259kd\u0259n q\u00fcrur hissi duyard\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Anam x\u00f6r\u0259yi d\u0259 el\u0259 bi\u015fir\u0259rdi. El\u0259 bilirdin sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259dir ki, x\u00f6r\u0259k bi\u015firir, sabah daha bi\u015firm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Amma sabah da, sonrak\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259r d\u0259 bi\u015firirdi v\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 eyni h\u0259v\u0259s, eyni m\u0259suliyy\u0259t, eyni yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131qla yana\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 x\u00f6r\u0259k bi\u015firm\u0259y\u0259. Onun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259sirdi ki… Bu, x\u00f6r\u0259k bi\u015firm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7ox, \u015feir yazmaq, r\u0259sm \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k, \u015f\u0259rqi s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259k kimi bir i\u015f idi – yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q idi anam \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Anam bununla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ifad\u0259 edirdi. \u018fslind\u0259 o, h\u0259r i\u015fi il\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259sdiql\u0259m\u0259yi sevirdi.\u00a0 Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259rin balacas\u0131, b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fc, vacibi, \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259tsizi yox idi. O h\u0259r i\u015fi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yara\u015fan \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259yi sevirdi, bunu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 borc bilirdi. Anam i\u015fi il\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131 nec\u0259 sevdiyinin \u015f\u0259klini \u00e7\u0259kirdi. K\u0259ndd\u0259 ham\u0131 onun \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yind\u0259n, s\u00fcfr\u0259sind\u0259n s\u00f6z a\u00e7ard\u0131. S\u00fcfr\u0259 anam \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u00fcfr\u0259d\u0259n qat-qat b\u00f6y\u00fck olan bir d\u00fcnyan\u0131n r\u0259mzi idi. V\u0259 biz h\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u00fcfr\u0259n\u0131n arxas\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 el\u0259 bilirdik bu, yem\u0259k-i\u00e7m\u0259k m\u0259clisind\u0259n \u00e7ox, anam\u0131n yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q m\u0259rasimidir. Bu, yaln\u0131z yem\u0259k m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si deyildi. Anama g\u00f6r\u0259 ruzi s\u00fcfr\u0259 m\u0259rasimin\u0259 xidm\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. Ruzi s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 uz tutmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, s\u00fcfr\u0259nin \u0259traf\u0131nda birl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir vasit\u0259 idi. S\u00fcfr\u0259 ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ruh\u0259n qovu\u015fdu\u011fumuz bir m\u0259kan idi. M\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259rin, b\u00f6y\u00fck d\u0259rsl\u0259rin \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259tini s\u00fcfr\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131nda anlam\u0131\u015fam. \u201cKim olsa, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 m\u00fctl\u0259q aya\u011fa qalx\u0131n. Qad\u0131nlar birinci \u0259l uzatmasa, n\u0259bad\u0259 \u0259l ver\u0259siniz. K\u00f6yn\u0259yinizin yaxas\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q olar haa bird\u0259n…\u201d Bac\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131za da: \u201cYa\u011f\u0131n\u0131z da\u015fsa da, qa\u00e7may\u0131n. Q\u0131za qa\u00e7maq yara\u015fm\u0131r. Adam aras\u0131nda g\u00fclm\u0259yin. G\u00fcls\u0259niz, \u0259liniz a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131zda olsun…\u201d Bunlar s\u00fcfr\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131nda tez-tez e\u015fitdiyimiz \u00f6y\u00fcdl\u0259r idi. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 daramaqdan \u00e7\u0259ng\u0259l-b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 tutma\u011fa q\u0259d\u0259r, dan\u0131\u015fmaqdan tutmu\u015f, adam aras\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc aparma\u011fa q\u0259d\u0259r laz\u0131m olan h\u0259r \u015feyi anam biz\u0259 el\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131ndaca \u00f6yr\u0259dirdi. Anam\u0131n s\u00fcfr\u0259sind\u0259 z\u0259hm\u0259tin, hallal\u0131\u011f\u0131n, do\u011fmal\u0131\u011f\u0131n t\u0259nt\u0259n\u0259si vard\u0131. Burda insan\u0131n daha bir \u00e7alar\u0131, daha bir sirli qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. S\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 anam\u0131n b\u0259nz\u0259rsiz sevgisi, ruhu hopmu\u015fdu. Bu, onun \u015fah \u0259s\u0259ri idi. S\u00fcfr\u0259d\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fck, \u00fczl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fck, g\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259ki i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fck. V\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f naz-nem\u0259ti nec\u0259 g\u0259ldi yey\u0259 bilmirdik. S\u0131x\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131q, inc\u0259lirdik, k\u00f6vr\u0259lirdik. H\u0259r tik\u0259 onun bir s\u00f6z\u00fc, \u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fc idi. Anam \u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fc biz\u0259 lo\u011fma il\u0259, tik\u0259-tik\u0259 yedizdirirdi. Amma n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dadl\u0131, l\u0259ziz olsa da, yedikc\u0259 toxluq hissi il\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r, bir m\u0259suliyy\u0259t y\u00fck\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7iynimizd\u0259n bas\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259r tik\u0259d\u0259n sonra d\u0259yi\u015firdik. H\u0259r lo\u011fma s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xana kimi hans\u0131 m\u0259rh\u0259l\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u00e7diyi g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lirdi. Z\u0259hm\u0259tin, halall\u0131\u011f\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu ruh\u0259n anlay\u0131rd\u0131q.<\/p>\n

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K\u0259ndd\u0259 el\u0259 bir m\u0259clis olmazd\u0131 ki, anams\u0131z ke\u00e7sin, ona ba\u015fda yer g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259sinl\u0259r. Anam bel\u0259 m\u0259clisl\u0259rd\u0259 sevinci d\u0259, k\u0259d\u0259ri d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7irirdi, ba\u011fr\u0131na bas\u0131rd\u0131. Yas yerl\u0259rind\u0259 n\u0259yins\u0259, kimins\u0259 xatirin\u0259 deyil, o d\u0259rdin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131, o itkini \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcnk\u00fc kimi ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 dey\u0259 f\u0259ryad qopar\u0131rd\u0131, hayq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0259m yiy\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259rdini unutdururdu. V\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 bel\u0259 t\u0259dbirl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilmirdi. Anam h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn bir par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 o d\u0259rd\u0259 verirdi. O d\u0259rdin y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc evimizd\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdi.<\/p>\n

Toylara da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 bil ki, \u00f6z balas\u0131na toy edirdi. Bundan \u00f6tr\u00fc \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n haz\u0131rl\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u201c\u015eax\u201d b\u0259z\u0259tdirirdi. H\u0259diyy\u0259ni, b\u0259x\u015fi\u015fi toy sahibind\u0259n \u00e7ox, \u00f6z ad\u0131na layiq se\u00e7irdi. Bel\u0259 yerl\u0259r\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox sevdiyi, sanball\u0131 x\u0259l\u0259ti aparard\u0131. Toy sahibini a\u011f\u0131rlayar, \u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259r, h\u0259r i\u015fin\u0259 \u00e7iyin ver\u0259r, t\u0259ntim\u0259y\u0259 qoymazd\u0131. A\u011fbir\u00e7\u0259kliyi, yolbil\u0259nliyi, m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259ti il\u0259 m\u0259clisi urvata mindir\u0259rdi. Anam deyirdi ki, h\u0259r m\u0259clis elin ad\u0131nad\u0131r – onu urvats\u0131z el\u0259m\u0259k olmaz.<\/p>\n

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H\u0259yat\u0131n he\u00e7 n\u0259yi anam\u0131 n\u0259 yalan dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa, n\u0259 d\u0259 harama \u0259l atma\u011fa m\u0259cbur ed\u0259 bilm\u0259di. Anam xan\u0131m-xat\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259qamlarda qoruyub saxlaya bildi. O, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fc boyu h\u0259yatdan y\u00fcks\u0259kd\u0259 durma\u011f\u0131 bacard\u0131. H\u0259yat\u0131n onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259hrumiyy\u0259tl\u0259ri xat\u0131rlayanda indi d\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 saxlaya bilmir\u0259m. H\u0259yatla anam aras\u0131nda g\u00f6z\u0259g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z, \u0259dal\u0259tsiz bir m\u00fcharib\u0259 gedirdi. Onun imkanlar\u0131, t\u0259sir g\u00fcc\u00fc n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fck olsa da, anam\u0131n da m\u0259n\u0259viyyat deyil\u0259n ke\u00e7ilm\u0259z \u00c7in s\u0259ddi vard\u0131. H\u0259yat anam\u0131 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fcs\u0259, anam o q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fccl\u0259nirdi, qeyr\u0259tl\u0259nirdi. H\u0259yat anam\u0131n m\u0259\u011frurlu\u011fu il\u0259 he\u00e7 c\u00fcr bar\u0131\u015fa bilmirdi. H\u0259r add\u0131mda insanlar\u0131 endir\u0259n, al\u00e7aldan, h\u0259r yola \u0259l atma\u011fa m\u0259cbur ed\u0259n h\u0259yat \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n anama el-oba aras\u0131nda \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t, x\u0259tir-h\u00f6rm\u0259t qazand\u0131rd\u0131. Anam\u0131n h\u0259r i\u015fi \u00f6rn\u0259k oldu. He\u00e7 bir t\u0259hsili olmayan sad\u0259 k\u0259nd qad\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck titullar\u0131n f\u0259th ed\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi zirv\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 ucald\u0131. M\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 u\u015faq ya\u015flar\u0131mda anam\u0131n timsal\u0131nda b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcn, a\u011fbir\u00e7\u0259kliyin nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 qazan\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u015fahidi oldum.<\/p>\n

Anam h\u0259yat\u0131n onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n qorxmad\u0131. Atam m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 olanda mallar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 al\u0131b kolxoza veribl\u0259r. Atam\u0131n \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259ri, halal z\u0259hm\u0259ti il\u0259 tikdiyi evimizi kolxoz idar\u0259si el\u0259yib, anam\u0131 v\u0259 bac\u0131-qarda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 \u201cpodval\u201dda ya\u015famaq m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qoyublar. Anam balalar\u0131n\u0131 penc\u0259rl\u0259, gec\u0259l\u0259r y\u0131\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 ba\u015faqla saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Gec\u0259l\u0259r k\u00f6v\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n s\u00fcnb\u00fcl q\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131 toplama\u011f\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilirsinizmi? A\u011fna\u011faz\u0131 d\u0259yirmana \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259 da\u015f\u0131m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ona verilmi\u015f iki hektar sah\u0259d\u0259 toxum c\u00fcc\u0259rm\u0259diyind\u0259n ba\u015fqa yerd\u0259n pamb\u0131q p\u00f6hr\u0259sini g\u0259tirib c\u0131zlara bir-bir \u015fitil \u0259kdiyind\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u0259km\u0259mi\u015fdi anam… G\u00fcnahs\u0131z olsa da, pamb\u0131q \u00e7\u0131xmasa, \u0259m\u0259kg\u00fcn\u00fc almayacaqd\u0131. \u0130stil\u0259r\u0259 tab el\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc arxlar\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131ndak\u0131 bulan\u0131q sulardan y\u0131\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f pal\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131, l\u0131qqan\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131na, bald\u0131r\u0131na yaxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biz\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131… Bunlar sovet h\u00f6kum\u0259tinin \u201cazad qad\u0131n\u201da – anama b\u0259x\u015f etdiyi \u201cxo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin\u201d he\u00e7 bir faizi d\u0259 deyildi. M\u00fcharib\u0259nin g\u0259tirdiyi acl\u0131q v\u0259 s\u0259fal\u0259t\u0259 tab el\u0259m\u0259k b\u00f6y\u00fck irad\u0259 ist\u0259yirdi. M\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n sonra da h\u0259m \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131na qalmaq, h\u0259m m\u0259hrumiyy\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 sin\u0259 g\u0259rm\u0259k, h\u0259m kolxoz i\u015fin\u0259 getm\u0259k, h\u0259m d\u0259 el-oban\u0131n xeyrin\u0259 yaramaq v\u0259 bundan usanmamaq, bezm\u0259m\u0259k h\u0259r qad\u0131n\u0131n i\u015fi deyildi. Anam qism\u0259tini ham\u0131dan \u00e7ox ist\u0259diyi x\u0259st\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 kimi ba\u011fr\u0131na bas\u0131rd\u0131. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ac\u0131 da olsa, o, taleyini balalar\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r sevirdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ed\u0259 bilirdi ki, d\u00fcnyadan d\u00f6rd\u0259lli yap\u0131\u015fan, d\u00fcnyadan yaln\u0131z qoparmaq ist\u0259y\u0259n adamlardan deyildi. D\u00fcnyaya n\u0259s\u0259 verm\u0259k, d\u00fcnyan\u0131, he\u00e7 olmasa, bir adaml\u0131q g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k, sevdirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Anam ona veril\u0259n pay\u0131 bel\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259rf etm\u0259z, saxlay\u0131b kim\u0259s\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamaqdan h\u0259zz alard\u0131. F\u0259dakarl\u0131q onun h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc idi. Anam d\u00fcnya il\u0259 do\u011fmal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, halall\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn ax\u0131r\u0131na kimi qoruyub saxlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

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Bizim ilk m\u00fc\u0259llimimiz d\u0259 anam oldu. Sonralar da h\u0259yatda b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259r g\u00f6rd\u00fck. Lakin onlar\u0131n dedikl\u0259rinin \u00e7oxunu\u00a0 anam biz\u0259 daha d\u0259rind\u0259n, daha ayd\u0131n yollarla \u00f6yr\u0259tmi\u015fdi – \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k bi\u015fir\u0259-bi\u015fir\u0259, yuxusuz qala-qala, a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya… Anam\u0131n bayat\u0131lar\u0131nda t\u0259kc\u0259 bir ail\u0259nin deyil, bir elin, bir m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259tin h\u00fczn\u00fc vard\u0131. Anam adi, el\u0259-bel\u0259 a\u011flamaq bilmirdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki d\u0259rdi d\u0259rd kimi ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Bozlay\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131 ki, s\u0259simizi bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xara bilmirdik. Donub qal\u0131rd\u0131q. Yeri-g\u00f6y\u00fc ki\u015fn\u0259dirdi onun a\u011flart\u0131s\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 o, bunu ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yat\u0131randan sonra edirdi. \u0130st\u0259mirdi ki, onun a\u011flayan, \u0259lacs\u0131z, k\u00f6m\u0259ksiz hal\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259k. Anam bu anlarda \u00e7ox t\u0259nha olurdu. Bizi yat\u0131rmaq el\u0259 bilirdik ki, onun g\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u0259si ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 i\u015fi idi. Amma bundan sonra o, d\u0259rdin\u0259 d\u0259 vaxt ay\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. D\u0259rd onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qarda-\u00e7ov\u011funda qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda qalm\u0131\u015f q\u0259rib u\u015fa\u011fa b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi. A\u011flamaqla onu \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 anam. \u00dcr\u0259yinin qap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 taybatay a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131 d\u0259rdin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259…<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcm boyu bildiyim, tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m adamlar aras\u0131nda anam h\u0259yata qalib g\u0259l\u0259n yegan\u0259 insan oldu…<\/p>\n

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Bu yaz\u0131 ilk bax\u0131\u015fda anamla ba\u011fl\u0131 xatir\u0259 t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bil\u0259r. Amma s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tl\u0259 dey\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m ki, bu x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259tl\u0259r o ill\u0259rin analar\u0131n\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259tin\u0259 \u015famil edil\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. Anam, sad\u0259c\u0259, o c\u0259fake\u015f qad\u0131nlar\u0131n \u00fcmumil\u0259\u015fmi\u015f sur\u0259tidir.<\/p>\n

…V\u0259 o ill\u0259rin \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi ona g\u00f6r\u0259 bel\u0259 dadl\u0131, \u0259tirli, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 bel\u0259 b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tli olurdu ki, onu bu c\u00fcr analar bi\u015firirdil\u0259r…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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